It never fails.
i woke up today in a moody mental space.
it’s probably the cancer “i hate everything” in me.
i’ve accepted and owned that.
this morning’s agenda was to run a few errands.
i threw on:
Hoodie
Sweats
Dad Hat
Crocs
i was not really in a “see or be seen” kind of mood.
as i’m outside,
i decided to go to supermarket to pick up a few items.
as soon as i step in there,
i don’t know what holiday today is but…
It seems like every FINE black wolf in the Harlem area decided to go shopping at that exact moment.
It was two particulars tho…
oh.
my.
goodness.
it was two tall yellow wolves in the frozen food section.
i walked in there to get frozen vegetables and peeped em.
they were either:
Dad/Son or Brother/Brother combo
one was def younger and looked like he was in college.
he was really cute but i wasn’t looking at that one.
It was Daddy with the tatts down his arms,
muscular thick,
and had some thighs I’d like him to suffocate me with.
He had this fresh fade and these nice ass lips on that handsome facial of his.
His feets looked big in his slides too.
GEE-ZUS,
he was fione.
when i was in the tea section,
i saw him go to the register.
WHY DID HE randomly leave the register alone to come where i was?
when he walked up next to me to get some chocolate fudge…
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I wasn’t gonna disappoint myself in hoping he spoke to me.
alas,
i stopped getting my hopes up with street wolves anymore.
so i grabbed some earl grey and left.
i hope i see him again tho.
i’d like to test out those one condoms out with him.
Why can’t I comment?
Sheesh. I’ve been called oblivious and socially awkward and this post is making it plain to me. The problem is it always happens when they’re with a woman or I’m with a family member/friend. NEVER when I’m alone. People have pointed out that someone was hovering around me and because I’m in my own world I usually don’t notice it.
I have started paying attention and it makes me not want to date. Why?
I’ll see a hot guy with an average looking woman and think “He could do better” and then forget about him. Then the hot guy and his girl will be in the aisle I’m in and she’ll say something like “we don’t need anything in this aisle” and he’ll be “I’m just browsing/looking/you never know”. She’ll say “Okay, I’m gonna get xyz”. Then when she leaves the aisle, he’ll come over and stand next to me, browsing, or reach in front of me, to “see the price” of something.
My logic was because there was no eye contact, assuming anything would be delusional. Nope. They’ll do everything BUT look at me.
I noticed it when I saw a hot guy in the parking lot a few aisles away, kept running into him and his girl and then when I left the store, Jamari…THEY WERE PARKED RIGHT NEXT TO ME!
I wonder what he told his girl. To move closer to the store? I was SHOOK. So I get to the car, get in and he makes eye contact with me, and then they drive off. Was he waiting for me to come out?!
And when I’m with someone, that’s when guys want to ask me where something is(We’ll be right in the aisle, so it’s cap haha)
Anygay, unless it’s online I will never assume a guy in person wants me. Too shy and afraid of being hatecrimed. Oh well.
Foxxy, he sounds Hott!!! Sometimes I like to put on my Tight/Slut ammunition and go to Lowe’s and Home Depot.
This could have been a story you told your future kids 15 years from now, when they asked,”How did y’all meet?”🤣
#howimetyourfather
^ LOOOOOOOL
imagine?
“i met your father as i was trying to decide between earl grey or sleepy time tea.”
Grocery stores are the best place especially before closing time in my hood. If they ask, who, what, where, and how. You just hit the Lottery!!!
^ i wish it was that easy for me.
sometimes.
i don’t want too much crazies in my space.
i need to do something about my face in public.
my “resting bitch face” isn’t exactly inviting LOL
You’d be surprised what a “wassup” and a compliment can lead to
^ i know,
i know tony.
smh.
i’ll blame it on the day.
i wasn’t in the right vibe today.
Jamari, THAT was your cue! He purposely left the cash register and walked over there to the section RIGHT BESIDES YOU! When he ducked off from his Son/Brother. He’s an old school playa. That’s what they do. They don’t divert attention to themselves. You could’ve asked him, “what you making with that?” Or asked him for a recommendation of what to get.
^ can i be 110%
i wasn’t in the best headspace today.
i felt like if i even tried to speak to him,
i would have fucked it up and embarrassed myself.
plus,
i always feel like i have these moments that lead to nowhere in the forests.
tbh,
what you fonted was perfect but i wasn’t even thinking.
i’ll do better next time.
thank you carly ❤️