its so funny, but when i call out to star fox or god for help, i get an answer. it almost scary how it happens.
so everyone knows i stream td jakes service every sunday. i am a faithful potter’s house e-member.
this week was the t.o.r.i graduates and retired baller wolf, ray lewis,
was invited to speak.
well he was tugging on my heart strings so i started to cry. yup.
it took church to release everything i was storing inside.
in the middle of my weeping,
i prayed that god and star fox for help. well no sooner than i said that, i got a text on my phone… Continue reading “He Heard Me (Thank God)”
sadness. insecurity. over-thinking. fear.
it all concocts the recipe of “fuck shit” in our lives.
you try to achieve your goals,
but one (if not all of those things) put a full stop to it.
its like a swipe password pattern almost.
you don’t feel happy. swipe left and it leads to seeing the insecurities in your life. swipe up and it makes you question everything you do. when you swipe down, it makes you want to stay stagnant,
because well, you don’t feel good enough.
its all the plot to keep you where you are.
bad enough, social mediaand these lying ass hoes don’t make it any better. i couldn’t stop but wonder…
i like to think i’m a good influence in a lot of ways. i also like to think i’m a bad influence just the same.
when i tell people to do something,
or at least try it,
they do it to good results.
its not bragging.
i see the potential in people. well i turned my cousin out today… Continue reading “I Turned My Cousin Out (and I Liked It)”
so while i was dealing with the funeral arrangements for mickey mouse,
i was watching td jakes church online this morning. you know i like to get my word from my laptop. praise jesus!
it was the potter’s housebig mega fest weekend and this was the closing sunday service. tyler perrywas there and he had some interesting stuff to say to the audience,
as well as get in the spiritand well…
i already been hurt. i already been crying. i already been talked about. i already been abused. i already been spit on. i already been laughed at. i already been bullied. i already been replaced. i already been betrayed. i already been lied about. i already been lied to. i already been low. i already been hit the floor. should i keep going? yup i will… i already been lost everything. i already been homeless. i already been embarrassed. i already been humiliated. i already been dismissed. i already been left behind. i already been had my feelings hurt. i already had my heart broken. i already been broke. i already been had anxiety attacks. i already been attempted suicide. i already been lost my parents. i already been lost my best friend. i already made up in my mind that i got nothing to lose now.
i watched td jakessermon about you can recover from a fall.
i felt what he said.
heavy. i fell off, rolled down a hill, and landed somewhere in some new forest.
it is a dark and scary place.
i’m battered and bruised,
but i’m dragging my ass back up the mountain. yeah buddy.
i got to get up there now.
it’s about that time espeically after today. ain’t nothing more dangerous as someone who is making a comeback. you really ain’t seen nothing until you fucked with someone who got nothing to lose.
welcome to this new chapter v in my life:
i know my foxes, wolves, and hybridsgot my back. i ain’t worried bout nothin.
lowkey:all those people who hurt me, left me alone, talked about me, and made me feel pain in any way.… i’m coming to collect your fuckin’ head.