the scene: a beach resort.
that is how the dream started last night…
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i don’t have any friends in this life.
nope.
i don’t.
i really don’t.
some of you may not understand,
but some might.
let’s see…
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i had an interesting dream about star fox last night…

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so last night i couldn’t sleep.
i was tossing and turning well into 330 in the morning.
i finally fell asleep and had the most interesting dream…

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somewhere between deciding if i should watch scandal or glee first,
since everyone was crying over the latter,
i got a phone call from someone i didn’t think i would hear from again last night.
it was star fox.
a look of pure shock landed on my face.
i was hoping i’d answer the phone,
proceed to cuss him the fuck out,
and then wait for the logic explanation.
spy?
witness protection?
bet?
i know that wasn’t gonna happen because unless he knows a good plastic surgeon,
that was him we buried a couple months ago.
when i answered,
it was mama fox.
she was crying.

“omg are you okay?” i asked.
“no.
no i’m not.” she responded.
“whats going on?” i asked.

maybe i shouldn’t have asked that…

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i always liked this beyonce song,
“save the hero”.
i think i mentioned that before.
the lyrics are a true testimony of my life.
you know the person who is always there for others,
acts like the super hero,
goes above and beyond to make sure they are okay,
keeps a great reputation,
but when the super hero goes home and takes their mask off…
who saves them?
i had someone who use to save me.
someone i felt comfortable to talk to and share myself with.
he has passed on and it has left me a complete mess.
my life is a fuckin mess.
do you still like me now?
i know people like living in a fantasy of others these days.
at least i have the balls to admit it.
a long piece ahead…

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