i was playing video games and a wave of sadness washed over me.
a dude i’ve been interested in has been on my mind,
along with many questions i have about him,
but that helped pulled me under the current of distress ive been feeling.
the holidays are usually really tough for me.
it tends to enhance just how alone i am in this world.
when i asked my sister to live with me,
i thought that would help make me feel that sense of family.
the pandemic during this holiday season really made me feel the loneliness really hard…

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santana lopez was,
and still is,
my favorite character on “glee”.
yes,
i watched that show (up until a certain point because it got awful).
i don’t care who knows tho!
i don’t know how i got into that show,
but i was drawn to her character.
male or female,
i tend to love the bitchy anti hero character types.

well i was up at like 2am when i saw the news about naya rivera,
who played santana lopez on “glee“,
and her disappearance off a boat.
if you didn’t know…
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i came the the conclusion recently:

I don’t like smoking weed

confession: i did because everyone around me did.
tv and music always makes it seems so amazing,
yet i never have those experiences.
every time i smoked,
i always ended up:

…paranoid af
…with every thought in my head enhanced
… a horrible depression the next day

alcohol loosens me up,
but weed is actually a downer for me.
the last time i smoked (which was last year for a r&b/birthday party),
i felt like i could pick up on everyone’s energy tho.
i felt intensely psychic af.
that’s a whole nother story.
they say weed is the gateway drug use to harder drugs.
i can believe it.
i saw this video on twitter that broke my heart.
it was the stages of drug use with this one vixen and well…

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the rona is hittin’ close to home.
two ex-coworkers lost their relatives to it,
fancy’s aunt is a nurse who got it,
and now someone on my end has it…

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odell beckham jr could have 70 girlfriends and folks will think he’s gay.
they could literally hearing him banging a vixen in another room,
and somehow,
they’ll still think he was with another male.
he may just have to accept this is what folks will think about him.
i saw the following video,
and i’m sure it’s innocent,
but the body language has everyone talking…

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i always believed if something ain’t broke,
it’s best to not try to fix it,
but you can find ways to make it better.
tumblr is,
or should i font “was”,
a place where folks could go to express themselves.
whether it was the artsy or creatives,
even the baiters,
it was a place where you could be yourself.
tumblr has launched some careers too.
this one and his sausage got a full career launch:

it had no rules when it came to pornographic content.
well they decided to ruin many lives today.
in two weeks,
they will remove all adult content from their site.
they claim they want to be a better and more positive community.
this is some of the statement that they posted…

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