it was no secret i wanted to see baggage claim.
from the trailers it looked interesting.
my vixen friend told me it is definitely a “bootleg that shit” type of movie.
“dont pay for that shit!” she said.
well small blessings anyway because i couldn’t afford it.
judging from this review on how it bombed this weekend at deadline…

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well on lighter news,
he has the most creative “le” name i done eva heard.
okay to the corner.

FOXMAIL

Hey Jamari. Hope all is well. I figure I try this receiving advice thing out. You always have something insightful to say. Would like to get you opinion on this. So here goes:

How did I Turn into the enemy?

I’m a wolf. D.L or discreet wolf if you give me a label. In plain terms a bisexual male. After conversing with a very close friend, something unsettling came up. My friend is an openly homosexual male. Having one of our ever so often “real” conversations he called me “the enemy”, a “guys guy”. My look of confusion must have invoked a explanation. He explain to me that I am the guy that “wants my cake and eat it too”. My friend explained I say I want commitment but do not really want it, end up in different beds “looking” for it and breaks hearts while I look for someone I know is a “dream”. I knew his statement came from a honest place so I did not take offense. This is honestly a very close friend. One of the very few who know the lifestyle I live. I just laughed it off. I denied his accusation  and we moved on but it caused me to really reflect.

Am I now the enemy?

I remember when I decided I was going to be honestly with myself at 21 yrs old . I was bisexual and no matter how much I denied it would not not go away.  It was not just a phase.  And suppressing it was making the urges stronger and me go silently insane. So I decided I owe myself the chance. I told myself that “I rather have one person of substance than many of no value” living this lifestyle change. I wanted one fox or hybrid and just enjoy it, give my best. I said I would not have pointless sex or many partners. I would be as honest with them (as I can be). Not play games. Just give it my all and would not settle. I will just concentrate on that one . I will be in search for that one.

Needless to say I have drifted from my goal. My friend’s statement  made me realize something I saw but tried to deny. I’m 23 at the moment and still “in search”.  I have done everything I did not want to do. I settled, body count on the raise, pointless sex, meaningless interactions, “talking” to more than one, being honest but withholding information (still lying),  playing the game before I get played and now unsure if I want “that one”.

How did this happen?
How did I become the dudes that did me wrong in this process?
The irony.
Am I the only one this happen to?
Is there any turning back?

MY ANSWER…

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yeah.
i’m def having one of those days.
will be serious tomorrow.
tonight i want to lay on the couch with you and watch these two flicks…

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don’t you love bow wow’s humbleness?
its absolutely inspiring.
not only has he given every hoe in new yawk a new game plan,
i’m sure his baby mama is getting ready to slice her cut.
what was it?
4k a month?
host at 106?
so yeah popcorn hoes.
not this one.

lowkey: is he still signed to ymcmb?

okay.
i am FEELIN this chick’s album.
so im having the laziest day on my couch.
it has become my bedroom and kitchen.
no it is not my bathroom too, smart ass.
an f-bi sent me and email with LISTEN TO THIS NOW.
lorde “pure heroine”.
this album is like…
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