ray edwards is a hunk of what id like to assume “good baller wolf meat”.
something that would cheer you up after feeling down.
well he sure did in this interesting pair of drawz…
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today was a better day.
thank you everyone who left comments,
checked in,
and prayed for me.
thank you for having patience with me.
i know i’m a handful.
so i put my laptop on sleep and took a long walk,
jill scott style.
i needed to clear my head and get out of it for a change.
i went to the library to return the book i had since it was overdue.
when i got back in the house,
i got a call from the lady i had the video interview with.
she called me to let me know some good and semi-bad news.
lets start with the semi-bad news…

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so yesterday during the breakdown of my life,
my straight wolf friend came to my rescue.
he gave me a ton of words of encouragement.
he knows music is a big part of my life,
as well as his,
and he suggested songs that would help.
songs i listened to but never really paid attention to the words.
i put on mary j blige, “not gon’ cry”, and he flipped.

“DONT PLAY THAT BITCH SHIT!!!!
ARE YOU CRAZY!!!
THAT IS MUSIC FOR BREAKUPS AND RELATIONSHIPS!!!
YOU NEED MUSIC TO INSPIRE YOU!!!
“LISTEN TO THE WORDS AND HELP YOU RECHARGE” MUSIC!!!
SAVE THAT MUSIC FOR FEMALES WITH AIN’T SHIT NIGGAS!!!”.

well he was right.
i noticed i listen to music that deals with relationships when im sad.
suddenly im sad and depressed.
hip hop helps,
but some of it is too braggadocios.
see: jay z,
the new kanye,
and this new slew of rappers.
so he sent me 2pac,
biggie,
and eminem.
i decided to create a itunes playlist of music called “handlewithcare”…

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so what triggered everything yesterday?
the letter.
the letter i got in the mail letting me my ui is ending next month.
now i know you say:
“well you already knew that.”
i did.
the letter came at the wrong time especially after the following events.
its a little long read but i hope you read it…

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i said i wasn’t going to write today.
i was going to do it tomorrow,
but something told me to do this entry this evening..
i had a breakdown today.
one that i feel is the start of my new life.
i cried,
and cried,
and cried.
i must have cried for 3 hours straight.
i was crying when i wrote that message this morning.
my straight wolf friend had to rescue me and im so grateful for him.
i ended up taking 5 benadryls because i wanted to sleep the day away.
if i didn’t wake up,
i honestly wouldn’t have cared at that point.
i woke up just now,
groggy as hell,
and something told me to write a poem.
i literally awoke up out my sleep and opened my laptop.
now i don’t write poems.
im not a poet in the least,
but i wrote one in a 1/2 hour.
it maybe wack as hell,
but this is me… now.
today.
5:33pm on november 13th, 2013.
an expression to describe something ive wanted to get into words.
so it means something to me no matter how novice it is.
i’ll talk more in depth tomorrow but here it is…

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no.
no its not what you think.
russell westbrook just wants your sac to have space in your drawz.
he’s the new creative designer to kings and jaxs high end underwear line.
check out some shots from the underwear’s campaign…
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