i just peed.
i have been holding it in since i just heard this news.
i’m still shaking.
so there was a wolf i use to know.
i met him originally on bgc,
but we use to hang tough.
karaoke use to join us on these adventures as well.
foxhole,
this wolf was in love with me.
i remember being as at a party he threw at his crib.
he walked up to me and said:

“i just want to kiss you right now.”

i didn’t feel that way about him,
but i let him know i only wanted his friendship.
during that friendship,
we hung out and always had fun.
when his mother passed,
he called me first.
i sat on the phone with him as he cried.
i listened and gave the best advice i could.
he was never the same after he lost her.
they were very close.
well we drifted apart as the years went on.
he met new people.
i met new people.
he randomly hit me up a year or two ago and asked to chill.
i was down,
but i never heard from him again.
i sent him a message and he never responded.
i moved on.
well one of my best home vixens i met through him hit me earlier:

“are you sitting down?”

“well,
i was gonna go pee.”

“i think you should sit down.”

“okay…”
Continue reading “Here Today; Gone Tomorrow: The Story of The Wolf I Use To Know” →

I HAD TO STOP WHAT I WAS DOING TO WRITE ABOUT THIS.
i was actually writing about simone blies,
but what just happened needed an update.
i hope you are sitting.
please sit.
so as i was writing that entry,
when i got a text from a number i never saw before.
it said…

Continue reading “Contact (Mi)” →

yesterday…
i found out of of me (ex) home vixens turned she-hyena has been betraying me.
she has been talking shit about me,
secretly outing me,
telling my business,
and a whole other bunch of foul shit to their friends.
animals i don’t or barely know.
i got it all in a text message from someone i barely know.
the words…
Continue reading “Same Knife Wha Stab Sheep Stab Fox” →

FOXMAIL

Hey Jamari,

I need some advice I know this wolf that I’m cool with that’s straight. He calls me his best friend/bro and he is also a ex co-worker of mine. Long story short I wanna if this wolf is gay or bi curious,DL, ect. He knows I’m gay and has no problem with me and my sexuality. He told me how he likes transgender model Sydney Starr and what not. I told him that she was a he and he is not phased by it.

(I heard of straight men that would mess with transgender women as long as they don’t have male parts)

When we text I say stuff to test him to see if he going to say “no homo” or “ayo” “pause”… Anything that may indicate that he is uncomfortable with what I said and he doesn’t. He goes with the flow and at times he sends me various emojis that the average  male wouldn’t send to another male.

Now he has a son and baby mom(that doesn’t mean anything now a days). And recently his female coworkers went to gay bar and he went along. I had a crush on him for the longest time and I like the back and forth.

How can I find out is he trying to play for the other team or not?

Should I leave it alone ?

MY ANSWER…

Continue reading “f0xmail: I Have A “Work Wolf” Situation Too! Help!” →

i have been in my room,
playing this batman game,
and relatively in a good mood.
even tho i have no bbqs to go to,
i’m not too stressed about it.
mi came to me earlier and asked if she could use my computer.
she wanted to check her social media accounts.
well what followed…
Continue reading “All (Mi) Could Do Was Cry (On the 4th of July)” →

i decided to buy work wolf breakfast this morning.
something inside told me to do it.
it was like an urge in my spirit.
i listened to it.
so i went and picked up a breakfast sandwich and some orange juice.
when i got up to work,
he was standing outside the building.
i don’t know if he was doing it purposely,
but when he saw me,
his face instantly lit up…
Continue reading “More “Friend”; Less Anxiety” →