that feeling when…
someone you were once cool with…
someone you had a bond with…
someone you thought was different than the rest…
leaves your life with no explanation.
not only that,
but they act like you don’t exist to them anymore.

they turn their head as you walk by
tries to avoid you
suddenly becoming distant and closed off

they hold what you did wrong as their own secret.
no way can you even explain yourself or even fix the issue.
everything is left unsaid.

that is my relationship with work wolf as of this moment.
it would be better if i didn’t have to see him everyday.
the silent treatment brings back many memories for me…
Continue reading “How We Hurt Others and Not Even Realize It” →

starting over.
new beginnings.
fresh starts.
they all mean the same thing.
it means that you realize something you are doing ain’t working.
well something ive been doing definitely ain’t working…
Continue reading “Change.fox” →

i only left my crib to go get a haircut and do laundry.
if i could have,
i would have spent the entire weekend in my cave.
lights off.
phone off.
“leave me alone”.
i have cried,
prayed,
and slept.
not entirely in that order.
have you ever been so depressed that you didn’t know what to do?
like if your life ended at that moment,
you might actually do a cart wheel into the light.
well thats how i felt all week.
i felt like a keyshia cole album.
last week was bad.
pretty bad.
i was/am/kinda/i dunno low-key depressed…
Continue reading “The Sweetness At The Bottom of Depression” →

waking up,
my phone has over 50 texts.
a larger amount of missed phone calls.
its from various designers,
clients,
celebs,
and baller wolves.
everyone wants something from me.
i’m happy to give it to them.
my days are spent:

traveling
styling
writing
 smiling

i am behind the scenes of almost every event.
i’ve casted models for every music video.
the books ive written are best sellers.
i secretly work along side big names.
i’m the best kept secret in hollywood.
they call on me personally for assistance with their issues.
i’m a therapist,
a fixer,
and a life line all rolled into one.
i have no complaints.
i wanted this.
i wanted to be “independent”.
no more dealing with a dictator and army that followed.
its just me and my own rules.
that is happiness to me…
Continue reading “Is This Happiness?” →

when last have you cried?
honest question.
no judgment.
dudes bee actin’ like they are beyond crying.
like wtf is that shit about?
on some ol::

“naw son.
only bitches cry.
i’m a man!
yeah!
a man!”

thats funny…
because when you cheated on your ex,
and they dropped you like a hot potato,
it was super masculine you called them crying and begging.

“baby please!
i made a mistake!
i’m sorry!
please baby!
i love you!
don’t leave me!
say something baby…”
*snot bubbles n shit*

uh huh.
okay.
whats up?
shut up.
so this what happened…
Continue reading “Real Foxes Cry While Eating Pork Chops” →

so i got the email i was approved for google adsense.
i know.
i know.
i was at work today and almost did a cartwheel down the hall.
i thought i came up.
“the start of my blogging career starts right now!”
well the celebration came to a complete halt when i came home…
Continue reading “I Came, I Got, and Fell Flat On My Butt Cheeks” →