You ever meet a guy and he is everything?
he was everything to you.
he could be the popular kid or the dweeb who sits at the front of the class.
there is no explanation as to why you feel drawn to him.
it’s almost like he’s a magnet.
you think about him a lot.
anytime you go to jack off,
or have sex with someone else,
he stays on your mind.
the only issue is…
Every time you want to get to know him better,
he pushes himself away.
what did you do to offend him?
it’s weird because you’re pretty amazing.
other dudes you have encountered,
whether straight or gay,
have no issues with you.
this particular male tho…
he avoids you like you went out here and hurt his feelings.
in a past life,
his mama was a butterfly and you pulled her wings off.
his daddy was an innocent slave that you got beat by massa.
it’s like wtf?
you keep trying to figure out what you done did.
“Is it me?”
“Am I a horrible person?”
“Maybe my breath be stinkin…”
maybe they pick up you’re gay and they hate all things gay.
we have all encountered this type of person before.
it can even be a girl.
we don’t realize we have done it to others too.
if your self esteem ain’t at peak capacity,
you start closing yourself off because it makes you feel like you are the issue.
shit like this can make you start questioning yourself.
Why is it that this type doesn’t fuck with you?
when you figure out what the issue is then lemme know.
lowkey: everything isn’t always about you,
but you gotta ask yourself…
You’re not messy.
You’re not extra.
You’re not a sex offender (
or are you?)
so why are they treating you as such?