over the weekend,
i was craving to watch something that felt both real and raw.
it led me to watching megan the stallion‘s documentary,
“in her words”.
there’s been so much chatter about her supposedly lying about sleeping with tory lanez.
i couldn’t help but think,
“honestly, wouldn’t anyone lie about that?”
i wanted the full story of all that went down in 2020.
the whole messy and unfiltered truth.
the clips floating around on social media were painting her out to be this villain.
so i watched and let me font…

I thought it was beautifully done.
I really liked how well the cartoon depictions were done.

whether The Foxhole agree with me or not,
here’s what i believe:

She was shot and that’s on record.
No one gets to take away her reality.
She’s a victim,
plain and simple.

what struck me was how deeply i related.
when my mother passed,
i was grieving hard.
like megan,
i sought out comfort in all the wrong places.
strangers,
substances,
moments of good times in places i never thought i’d be.
it was fun…
until it wasn’t.
soon enough,
the smiles felt fake,
the friendships were fragile,
and when i finally hit rock bottom,
people turned on me quicker than i could blink.

Jackals emerged and painted a picture that I was enemy when they did me wrong.
Blaming me for shit they did to me and NOT ONCE did I ever tell their secrets.

the same people i thought i could lean on were suddenly part of the whispering crowd,
ready to judge,
and ready to forget of all those good times we shared.

after watching that documentary,
i felt like i understood where she was mentally when everything went down with tory lanez.
she was just…
surviving.
piecing herself back together in any way she could.
betrayal is a hard thing to bounce back from.
i was fortunate that my mistakes played out before the age of social media.
i only had to face my block,
my church,
my jackals,
and not all the forests in the entire world.

so i applaud her strength and resilience.
losing a parent you were close to means losing the one person who’d have your back.
it’s a crash course in tough lessons.
if i had the chance to talk to megan jovon ruth pete,
not “megan the stallion”,
i’d have this question to ask:

“What did you learn?”

…because whatever her answer is,
i know it’s powerful.

you can check out megan the stallion’s doc,
“in her words”,
on amazon prime.

lowkey: i really like how close she is with kellon deryck.