inside jamari fox

that was randy bowden jr back in 2016.
he was fine back then,
right?
he always did “pectorals” well for me.

i used to font about him heavy in the 10s.
( x if you need a refresher )
i’ve been thinking back to when life was better,
but i’ve been wondering what happened to wolves from that era too.
some of them came and went,
or came and went and cummin’ on OF,
but randy?
he’s still very much here…

this movie was a trip.
Foxhole,
watch it now on HULU.
NOW.

we have to be careful what we wish for.
i’ve learned that many times tbh.
i’ve done it with wolves,
people,
and tbh,
transitioning to this place i’m staying at now.

it isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be.
even though it drains TF outta you,
it either isn’t meant for you or meant to challenge you for better.

the pay off is you gain skills that the “easy mode” path didn’t.
i felt that way watching the 2023 movie,
“what you wish for“…

i didn’t ask to foster to a puppy.
i never liked the idea because i know me.
i’ll get close to an animal,
bond with it,
love it,
and train it only to then let it gotta go to someone else.
living here has been heavy on impulses with light chaos tbh,
so this puppy has been my peace.
i had the option to adopt and even though its a few hundred,
it’s not on my budget especially with the apartment deadline over my head.
well apparently in a message today…

black bomber jacket
black jeans
birkenstock loafers

these ones for reference:

Foxhole,
he looked mixed but he could have been white.
he didn’t look like a rican and dominican wolf i was use to in the new yawk forest.
either way,
i don’t know what TF he was but he was fine.
i took a random outing to TJ maxx with the person i stay with.
when i was looking around the store,
he was in the bedding section with who i assumed was his vixen.
i was looking for the men’s section because i needed socks.
while i got distracted by the many pairs of jeans they had in that store,
i noticed he was by himself and closer to where i was.

…but no,
okay,
wait…

i’m so annoyed at this story.

when chappell roan first started,
i was really into her first album.
it is a fuckin’ masterpiece.

pink pony club.
coffee.
casual.
my kink is karma.
“good luck, babe” is definitely on my life soundtrack.

i respected her story too about being overlooked,
dropped,
then coming back like:

“watch this.”

i love a good underdog moment.
somewhere along the way tho,
something started being sus with her.
i couldn’t figure it out first,
but she started to feel…
off.

the interviews
the tension with reporters
the drag makeup felt more like geisha makeup
the “don’t look at me for politics” after speaking on politics
the alleged uncle who is a republican in missouri

it started to feel less underdog and more “karen”.
i started wondering why wasn’t she more humble after being poor and overlooked.
well after her ( x recent antics ),
i guess the public is starting to get sick of her.
it turns out that chappell might actually be wealthy AF…

i love some of these christian people.
they can be so stupid.
it’s cute.

i don’t know about ya’ll but i don’t care about christian folks and some of their thoughts.
it is always comes from a place of sitting on a high horse,
while ONLY looking down on gay folks.

thieves?
whatever.
PDFs in the family?
cheeks turned.
LGBTQ?
going to hell sitting in a gasoline soaked chair.

…oh and mental illness.
some of them think you can “pray the depression away“.
this is why a majority of them are nuts.
so one of the acting jackals from tyler perry’s “beauty in black”,
decided to use his IG live to school us on who is going to hell or not,
which is a whole contradiction to me…