inside jamari fox

Okay let’s get light weight messy…

it’s one thing to be discreet,
or even DL,
as a single male.

It’s another to be an alleged married pastor on the DL whose getting his butt cheeks pulverized.

this is where i start to judge and can’t defend if they get outed.
the one thing i hate about church is:

It has taught people how to be good liars for the people of the Lord.

OF creator,
jrock,
posted about a bishop that he has been allegedly dickin’ down for a year.
how did he find out?
he didn’t even know his alleged receiver was a bishop until…

sometimes,
we can handle the harassment and bullying.
you don’t even need to be a public figure:

Imagine how it is for many people at work being bullied and harassed by bosses?
Feeling weak and hopeless because that is how you make money.
It’s not like you can escape because you need that job to survive,
along with the fact it’s hard to find a job atm.

when people catch you during difficult times in your life,
that is when it can really enhance mental health issues.
depression turns into a black hole with thoughts of final answers.
the following is when i nearly un-alived myself over online bullying…

*This post contains discussion of suicide, suicidal thoughts, and/or self-harm. Please take care of your mental and emotional well-being before proceeding. If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. Help is available:

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i used to think having a platform was just about sharing your voice,
building a little digital tribe,
and maybe posting a few thirst traps to ride some dick.
here’s what no one really tells or fonts you:
once you start getting noticed,
you also become something else.

A moving target.

people love the fairy tale parts of being a public figure.
the engagement,
the admiration,
and the “omg i love your content!” comments.
there’s a shadow side that doesn’t get posted on the highlight reel.
let’s font what i’ve learned about it…

because whew...

when i heard about her unaliving,
and why it was done,
all i could do was shake my head.
we live in a time where bullies are allowed to run wild for entertainment,
just to torment those who are minding their business.
mikayla raines,
the owner of “saveafox“:

ran a non-profit to save foxes took her own life yesterday.
the reasoning was due to mental health issues she spoke about…

*ALSO PLEASE EXCUSE THAT THUMBNAIL.
The videos are of Mikayla speaking about her torment.

but according to those familiar…

one of my biggest fears is to live through another 9/11 type of situation.
every time i see a plane flying in the sky,
i have this fear i’m going to see something terrifying.
the original broke us and changed the way we live forever.
i was watching a doc on OJ where it said back in 94 after the murders,
he legit got on a plane with no issues like what we deal with today.
if we had another 9/11 but in this century,
the sequel tho…

over the weekend,
i was hanging out with my wolf friend and he said:

“Damn,
that vixen you don’t fuck with anymore mother passed away.”

we are mutuals with this particular vixen.
his response to my response was the legit surprised pikachu face…