the one who is always there.
you call; i answer.
you text; i reply.
if i like you,
or i consider you my family,
i’m always available when someone needs me.
when i need someone tho,
some of those same people will blatantly ignore me.
well in this new season of “phoenix”,
i’m starting to change that…
the other day,
star fox’s x hit me up out the blue.
the thing about him is i realized long ago he is a selfish animal.
he will only talk to you when he wants to talk to you.
so in “jamari fox” fashion a couple months ago,
who god is still working on,
i cussed him out and cut that off.
he never responded so i figured we were done.
well i guess he found himself lonely last week so he hit me up.
he tends to go through “friends” rather quick.
the thing about me is i don’t hold grudges.
it all depends on what you did,
but i’ll always be cordial.
well he was back to the same ol fuck shyt.
a couple days later is when i got a response.
he didn’t even reply to the original message i sent!
he ignored that to ask me a question about some random shit.
by that time,
i had already erased his message.
i let him know i read it tho.
the next day,
he texts me on some playful shit like it was my fault i don’t reach out.
he is officially in the “no flex zone”.
i don’t know when he’ll be out of there.
i texted work wolf yesterday morning to see how he was doing.
he read the message,
but decided not to respond.
well he didn’t text me back until damn near 12am.
his excuse is he wasn’t in the mood.
so you couldn’t send a text and say that during the day?
the longest ive ever not responded to him was an hour or two.
during that time,
he will be blowing up my shit.
since he has been up this new vixen’s ass now,
he has been on some new shit.
so i didn’t respond to that text and probably won’t until i see him again.
left will blow up my phone when he needs someone to talk to,
but as soon as i need him,
i get a nice:
“call you later”
…and then no call back.
he’ll send some:
“love you bro”
and other niceties to get my attention back.
this is either days or weeks later.
by that time,
he has an issue he needs help with.
i have more in this cycle i have created.
i realized that i have become “mister available” to many wolves.
the home-vixens like karaoke and the pretty vixen are different.
they will respond.
they don’t take hours or damn near days.
plus they don’t always have some random issue they need help with.
the wolves up above all have the same trait.
star fox x can go thatta way————>,
but work wolf and left i actually give a fuck about.
the crazy part is,
they only respond in their feelings when i mirror their actions.
“yo where are you???”
…and a work wolf who will come to my department to see why i’m ignoring him.
it think it’s time to switch up alla dat.
its getting real ridiculous.
its like the vixen whose wolf continously does wrong.
she gets mad and kicks up dirt,
but all he need to do is give her some bomb dick and things are great again.
she in the kitchen cooking up a meal,
or buying him a ps4,
because her brains just got fucked out something ferocious.
well uh uh.
that ain’t me!
….or have i mentally become “that vixen”?
now i feel sick.
well the old saying goes:
you teach people how to treat you.
but i had to wonder…