when i was a kid,
my mother bought me a doll.
i think my mother would have been okay with me being gay tbh.
it wasn’t barbie or a baby doll,
but it was def a doll the size of a ninja turtle.
i loved this doll and played with it along with my action figures.

the way i played with toys was usually superhero shit.
the female characters were either fighting or were “damsels to rescue”.
i would create worlds with my imagination,
often times taking boxes and making tanks or battleships.

well,
one day my doll up and disappeared.
anytime my grandmother wasn’t home,
i tore her house down looking for my doll.
at a young age,
i could sense fuck shit so i KNEW she had something to do with it.

when my mother died,
she admitted she tossed it in the trash.

when i tell people this story,
they were always empathetic.
i was also told from many people that incident created trauma too.
the things our parentals did to make sure “we weren’t gay“.
when i see parents like…

i love brandy and monica with a passion buuuuuuuuuuuutttttt….

two weeks.
two weeks until the end.
two weeks until the trap door opens.
two weeks until i might be,
well,
homeless.

what do you do when the countdown to your next chapter feels more like a ticking time bomb than a fresh start?

i refuse to be the fox living out of his shoes…

you ever known a couple and knew it would end in disaster?
yup,
that was me with ^that mess above.
even at a young age,
i knew a “he hit a lick” when i saw one.
so i’m reading all of these new details from kevin federaline,
britney spears ex-husband,
and wow.

( x article 1 )
( x article 2 )

it doesn’t help she is on IG acting bat shit crazy atm.

i’m tired of the #teambritney excuses about this.
in the same breath,
i am old enough to remember when we were SUS CITY on kevin.
we knew that he wasn’t shit but she was trying to put lipstick on a pig.
at this point of her story,
she was out of control and did not care what anyone thought hence:

cue The Foxhole legendary gif:

well she got her “well you should have listened” as they all do,
and he got fat AF eatin’ good off her money.
in another “hit a lick” scheme,
he is trying to expose her in a memoir.
Foxhole,
this is another “hard head; soft ass” lesson in…

i’m glad he cried.
if this is real.

from the time growing up,
brandy has always shown love to her brother,
ray j.
they were always inseparable but apparently these days,
she isn’t fuckin’ with him rn.

why would she?

brandy is a brand.
she has already been in her own scandals that took years to smooth over.
ray j has been doing the absolute most nowadays.
case in point:

sidebar: don’t even start me up with that poor baby.
the fact that ray j is a father and this is what he is participating with this baby is wild to me.

like,
what?
so when tasha k asked him about his relationship with his sister and mama…

diddy got 50 months,
which equals about 4 years,
but as many of us sighed relief this shit is over:

“cassie should be in jail.”
“this is all cassie fault.”
“cassie brought the black man down.”

tbh…