is everything we eat about to kill us or make us explode from diarrhea?
what TF is even going on?
i was already paranoid over the shit lettuce aka cyclospora.
you know the one that’ll have you ( x camped out in the bathroom )?
ain’t gonna hold you but i order every sandwich/burger without lettuce now.
that might not stop even when they say the coast is clear.
i do like my salads with spinach tho.
did they rope spinach into this shit?
literally?
( x scans this document from FDA )
well some coffee is being recalled for the threat of paralyzing you…

Foxhole,
we are officially on the home stretch.
after months of bullshit,
stress,
uncertainty,
and wondering if life was ever going to stop throwing punches…

i’m almost there.

in about two weeks,
i’ll be back in my own space again.
i thought i’d be counting down the days.
i thought i’d be crying tears of joy.
i thought i’d be decorating in my head every night before i went to sleep but…

i come home last friday,
after a long day of work,
and i’m asked to sit down because we need to talk.
first thing i say to myself:

“what fuckin’ now?”

i’m told…

can i be petty for an entry.
Foxhole,
i deserve this.

soooooooooo…
i thought this straight wolf jackal was my friend when i was a teenager.
i wasn’t attracted to him even though he was really good looking.
he was part of the popular kids and my low self worth tail was looking for acceptance.
come to find out,
he wasn’t a friend and when it came to to defend me,
he didn’t stop at nothing to throw me under the bus.
as forgiving and sometimes the stupid cancer fox that i can be,
i saw him randomly on a rih’s social media and hit him up to font wassup.

left me on read.

it put my tail between my legs and STILL didn’t learn my lesson with others but i digress.
that was in like 2009 or so.
i would see him in pics with many of the wolves jackals in his pack that did me wrong.
it stung but i kept it moving,
working,
and living my best life.

well.

i was talking to someone we mutually knew from around that time in my life yesterday.
they were one of the many who warned me:

“jamari,
these jackals are NOT your friends.”

THEY SAID…

this is when he looked healthy because now…

i really believe someone knew andrew gillum‘s BTS secrets,
set him up,
and that’s how he got exposed.
like a majority of married DL males,
i think he was probably super sloppy.
in my head,
they knew what his weaknesses were and he fell face first in them.
it is pretty easy to ruin folks like this too.
you’d think after what went down with him ( x back in 2020 ).
nah,
that would be too easy because…

i’ve realized as long as i’m in this living situation,
i’ll never get anything done.

when i font that i’m at 10% battery levels of burnt out rn?

my internal battery is on low power mode.
it’s been so bad,
the front of my hair broke off due to all the stress i’m dealing with.
it is always something in chaos agent’s lair.
i tried to plan a day of relaxation for 4th of july,
but of course,
some shit went down to disrupt my plans.

the reality is…