i managed to save up a whole stack so far.
i’m trying to be on the next thing smoking,
sooner than later.
if i can get 3k in the next 2 months,
i’m gonna put down my security deposit on my own place.

i was trying to be in The Foxhole this week,
find my rhythm again,
but it gets difficult when you’re staying with a chaos agent (maybe i’ll nickname them that)
this week was yet another installment of:

“the jordan peele movie that i didn’t know i was casted in”

the latest drama was them losing the whole apartment…

sometimes after the breakup,
i know those “LooK YaLLz! ThIs Is mY MaNZ!” posts hit different.

i like megan thee stallion,
and i don’t understand all the unwarranted hate she gets,
but her relationship with klay thompson was a lesson in…

nate.
cassie.
maddy.

like in real life,
we’ve seen a “nate” choose a “cassie” over a ‘maddy”.
“it ain’t gonna last” is what we always say/font and then:

we hear about them getting married,
having kids,
and/or leveling up.

it leaves us confused but as this weird season of “euphoria” unfolds,
that’s the only dynamic that has me paying attention.
it made me think about something i’ve seen play out in real life…

a wolf slid me his number yesterday.
i had spoken to him on the phone at work and he sounded cute.
like,
really cute.
usually,
that is not the case with some males on the phone.
anyway,
the part that got me was when he said…

“jamari…
i know you are upset but you have got to stop letting this take over your emotions.
i’m gonna help you turn this all around…”

that was someone i’ve met here that i word-vomitted to.
they could tell i was up to my wits end with it all.
so they said in font earlier today…

so last night i got off work,
met up my neighbor to watch the latest episode of “euphoria”,
and when i got in at around 11pm…