stories like these trigger me,
especially when you see the journey of someone dying with cancer.
i watched my parents and many of my family members die of various cancer.
they go from looking really healthy to becoming skin and bones in a matter of seconds.
i was sent many pictures of kyle goffeny‘s twin,
as he battled having colon cancer.
seeing his pictures broke me.
his brother lost his battle a few days ago…
you know what’s weird?
i was telling one of my foxholers i already saw the video with mr. bolden and jaynite years ago.
this has to be around the time tumblr was poppin’.
one of the foxholers hit me with:
“Did you see the video of Mr. Bolden bottoming for Jaynite?
Jay turns out all the tops…”
…or something to that effect.
i saw the video and i thought it was pretty boring tbh.
you could tell mr. bolden really wasn’t into it.
the energy wasn’t sexy.
they even showed me what jaynite really looked like.
listen the foxhole be like the f-bi,
there was some drama with the video resurfacing a few days ago.
mr. bolden defended himself,
but i have an issue with his statement…
i’ve been pushed into using “instacart“.
everyone i know was urging me to use the service months ago,
but i was very “eh” on it.
i’m at the point of no return when it comes to ordering groceries now.
since it’s been brick city,
i barely want to leave my crib.
ya’ll be leaving ya’ll’s warm homes and beds to go fuck in the snow…
is there scientific proof that males that are gay didn’t have dominant father figures in their lives?
it’s weird because everyone i know who is gay/bi had their fathers in their lives.
God rest his soul,
was closer to his father than his mother.
some dl males i’ve been around kept/keep their sexuality secrets from their two parents’ homes.
even though i was closer to my mother,
my father was around.
everyone has a different experience in this life so i’m confused when hoteps think they’re scientists.
a tiktoker by the name of @karmonicz said males are gay,
and seek oral and anal sex,
because they’re yearning for their fathers…
Is it wrong to say I’ve been really going through it?
between the depression and the anxiety,
i don’t know how i‘ve been making it through.
i woke up today legit crying my ass off.
it has been better than my usual waking up filled with anxiety.
this did start around the time the mercury retrograde reared its ugly head,
but i think i’ve hit the pandemic wall…
i never get the wolf i want.
i always have the pleasure of attracting the ones i want,
but we always have this intense moment until something splits us up.
but they always end up having:
all bark; no bite especially where i want to be bit.
it never fails…