is this an example of what the people say is “queer baiting”?

when a acting wolf does/says a bunch of sus shit during movie press time,
especially when the movie has them as a “gay”,
but as soon as promo is over:

“I AIN’T GAY!
SEE!
LOOK AT MY PRETTY LADY!”
SEE!
AIN’T SHE PRETTY!”

someone ends up pregnant because that solidifies the straightness.

alexander skarsgård saw that after “pillion“,
the gays were getting too rabid for his swedish meats.
he put said this once we watched “pillion”…

even in this picture,
he looks like the odd color out.

one thing i am very versed in is messy work people.
i’ve had the work folks who smile in your face but snitch when your back is turned.
the ones whose only job is to climb up the ladder and if you can’t help with that:

for me tho,
it was always idiot bosses.
i have a real issue with idiots in leadership who are absolute morons,
especially when it comes to leading me.

sidebar: you know what i hate?
when you interview with your potential boss,
it ain’t even a week into working and they pull the mask off to reveal being born in hell.
UGH!

karamo brown,
talk show host and 4/5 of “queer eye”,
was like:

“i don’t fuck with 4 other bitches and i’m off this press tour starting now.”

only thing is,
he did it right before they had to go on air of “cbs mornings”…

from the time i was young,
i was always moving from one place to another.
something would happen just when i thought we found a home.
we would stay with someone until we found our “temporary” home again.
i font temporary because we’d be there for a few years.

until…

when we finally found a forever home,
when i finally felt safe,
my mother died three years into it.
those three years were peaceful and that home was wonderful.
that’s why that “jlo” album takes me back there.
it came out around a time when we felt like we touched solid ground.

until…

so i worked my ass off until i could get my forever home.
a home i stayed in for over fifteen years because it felt like safety.
i’ve lost that and like the familiar from when i was young
i’m a guest in someone’s space.
adjusting to unsaid rules; learning new rhythms and moods.
honestly…

i was OD waiting for pillion to be released.
it stars alexander johan hjalmar skarsgård and harry melling.
we fonted about it ( x here ).
here i thought i’d have to wait until it was in the movies.

…and then i saw HD GIFS of scenes from the movie.
my favorite.

i read the book,
“box hill” by adam mars-jones,
and ended up hating that experience.
so when i watched the movie from the comfort of the temporary home,
i instantly noticed the differences.
i’ll try my best not to font too much spoilers…

“you have had a hard life.”

my uncle said that to me during a recent catch-up.
for once,
i felt seen by a grown adult in my family.
some of my other family members ignores their trauma with religion.
i think it’s easier for him because he watched from the outside.
my mother and him were the rebellious ones; they bounced.
they didn’t stay to deal with what we dealt with.
something clicked after he said it because my whole life,
i’ve been yearning for an easier and softer life.
i think i’ve been lucky,
but luck always came wrapped in bullshit.
on top of that:

i had my own hurt slowing me down.

right now,
i’m being forced to process something from when i was 7 or 8.
a moment that unlocked everything…

i remember when jtrusty was pounding that white fox in the parking garage.

i always assumed joshua aka @jtrusty was into the white meat more.
every single sex video i have seen with him,
he has been with a white male.
i think he was dating (married?) the same one he was sharing an OF relationship with.
so when one of the F-BI sent me this:

because of this photo-shoot with @ajboardraye…