This picture is brutal but it is life.
It is the circle of life.

i had a dream about this picture last night and it came with a message.
as you can see,
that picture is a leopard who killed a monkey,
while its child clung to its lifeless body.
it was shot by igor altuna.
what’s interesting is that…

Anytime I hear about curious males experimenting with other males,
it always makes me cringe tbh.

they say it’s not for them when clearly,
they chose the WRONG male to be their first.
for some,
the options are slim and the fear of getting caught is high.
so they get with someone with muscles or ultra-masculine…

When they clearly needed someone who was more feminine,
little to no bawdy hair,
and the bawdy party they were looking for.

acting/cannibal jackal,
armie hammer,
made me think of this in his recent revelation on his podcast.
he admitted he hopped on grindr to hook up with another male.
alas…

I’m one of those people who keeps all his iPhone boxes.

i don’t throw them out because in my head:

“What if I need it in the future?”

what,
in some weird emergency,
i need to return my iPhone?
not realizing that when some shit happens,
apple literally sends you a cardboard box to send your phone back in.
so if that isn’t it,
then what is it?

Maybe it’s keeping the box that when I see it,
I remember the memories that came with that particular iPhone?

like my iPhone boxes,
i was holding onto someone that i no longer speak to on “find my friends“.
we haven’t talked in 2 years but we knew each other for 12.
it took about a 2 months in 2022 for our friendship to end.
all i had left was us still connected through that app.
when i would go on there to look for my devices,
they would pop up,
living in an entirely different state with whole new life now.

over the weekend,
i had a friend posed a few questions to me…

The problem with industry is what they loved you for is what they’ll turn on you for too.

it’s similar to regular life tbh.
they’ll love that you are gay but hate that you got the husband before them.
and if the husband is FIONE…

you’ll really see the tables turn.
i think that is what lil nas x demise might be.

He was loved for being black and gay but then once he started doing too much,
he started being hated for being black and gay.

i think it all started when he slid down a stripper pole to hell.
his career was on life support when he compared himself to Jesus.
the music didn’t hit for that amount of trolling and that was that.
according to the swamp,
it seems like he is allegedly on drugs in his latest video…

excuse my french right quick.
*ahem*

In every chapter in my life,
there was always some stupid BITCH who loved weaponizing to my sexuality.

they could NEVER mind their business.
it was always someone i thought was cool.
they were so busy in my front yard but in their own backyards:

A) they didn’t realize their manz wanted to stuff my ass with his cream

B) their own manz was cheating on them HEAVY or didn’t even like them

C) no one outside of their clique of other stupid bitches liked them either

sorry,
i had to get that off my fingers.
it has been sitting on my spirit for years.
it was always one defective hoe in the batch who was becoming like her mother.
they were evolving like a pokemon into the bitch mother they hated so much for being nosy.

ugh…
so a discussion about how black vixens make every male DL.
“the neighborhood talk” posted it and i wanted to correct something…

yesterday,
i was on the phone with cousin hybrid for over two hours,
catching up on everything:

Politics
Dating
Life updates
Family
The ins and outs of males who lurk on Rih’s social media

but somewhere towards the end,
we stumbled onto an unexpected “a-ha” moment about our childhood…