a breakup
a job loss
rejection
the death of someone close to us
setbacks that make us question our path
being ostracized from people we thought were our friends/family
struggling to accept not being straight
being violated and no one wants to listen or believe you/sides with the abuser

all these unwelcome guests can open the door to depression.
one moment…

i bought jaguar wright‘s first album.
i think i might have been the only one.
i bought it because of her being on jay’s unplugged and the coke commercial with the mouth:

Remember when neo-soul was poppin?
I miss that era.
I didn’t realize how much drama them neo-soul folks were in around that time either.

anyway,
the album was terrible and she vanished slowly after.
jaguar has been running her own platform,
being on all the podcasts,
but her mental illness as the main feature.
she has said some wild things in the past but allegedly,
she said she saw an alleged tape of nicki minaj and megan the stallion performing.
not the type of performing you are thinking about tho…

drake was at his handsome-est during the scorpion era.
whatever era started the low fade/beard combo tbh.
as soon as he got the cornrows,
started dressing in early 00s garb,
and everything looking way too oversized like he is trying to hide his weight…

He started to look really “ugh” to me.

you what else “ugh”‘d TF outta me?
this patois-country remix he was featured on today called “wah gwan delilah“.
it’s a cover of “hey there delilah” from plain white t’s…

but…

Everyone loves to play the asshole until shit happens.

a Foxholer once told me:

“You can be any kind of person,
but if you are kind,
people will stick by your side if you fall from grace.”

in my journey through the concrete forests of life,
this nugget of wisdom has surely has been many of my experiences.
sure,
kindness has sometimes led my spirit to be bruised and battered,
but more often than not,
it’s circled back to me in the most unexpected and beautiful ways.
people have remembered my kindness and did anything to help me.
the jackals who hurt me?
i watched them burn every bridge to be trapped on their own islands they created.
just yesterday,
i stumbled upon something that made me roll my eyes…

america is in this really weird place that when shit is about to go down,
especially when white folks are involved,
we assume that their privilege will protect them.
i assumed trump would be found not guilty and he’d be on his merry way.
i didn’t see this on my bingo card,
well i didn’t have a bingo card for this,
but this verdict…

you know when rolling stone gets to investigating ya.…
so rolling stone was doing a 6 month deep dive on all things diddy and…