Tag: heart

i use to want “something” so bad.
i don’t know how to define that “something” for the foxhole.

love?
loyalty?
friendship?
trust?

family?

it was all of those things actually.
whatever it was,
i wanted to be filled with it.
i was putting everyone before me.
it was very unhealthy.
well my heart was finally broken in 2016.
ironically,
i am grateful it finally did.
things have changed.
i said to myself today

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI CONCRETE FOREST STATE OF MIND

so they’re here.
fresh off the presses.
well kinda.
the aaron hernandez alleged “gay lovah” letters have been released.
well kinda.
he wrote a letter to prison officials about sharing a cell with some other jackals,
but one preferably that was his “heart”.
an f-bi sent me what wcvb had to say…

JACKALS, HYENAS, AND PINEAPPLES WOW

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i was sitting on my couch,
reading a book,
and i started to drift into some sad place.
it’s a saturday night and i’m home.
i have no money in my cc account to spend,
no friends i would really want to hang with,
and lord knows i would love to buy myself something pretty.
i suddenly caught myself in my feelings.
uh oh.
i decided to counter it.
which was weird as hell for me.
i usually go deep when i’m depressed,
over thinking and all kinds of shit,
but i’m tired of that.
i looked at things from a positive standpoint.
you would have been proud of me…

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI SOMETHING IYANLA VANZANT WOULD TELL YOU

I CAME... DID YOU?