i had an interesting conversation with “cousin confused” today.
he use to be “cousin hybrid”,
but i’ll get into why that’s changed in a few.
so he called me at like 1:30pm.
i thought something was wrong or someone was dead.
a force of habit.
he wanted to talk about something,
but we ended up talking for a few hours…
he called me to ask about the law of attraction and crystals,
but we got into sex and the life.
he told me that he is having issues with his sexuality.
it’s not that he wants to be straight,
but he doesn’t know what role he feels comfortable in.
he told me how he doesn’t like being a fox.
he thought he would be a fox because during his first time,
he was 14 and lost his virginity to a wolf in his late twenties.
he said it almost felt like rape.
the wolf didn’t understand the word “no” and was too rough.
that experience lowkey scarred him.
he doesn’t feel like a full fox tho.
my cousin is obsessed with tail.
he loves tail like a fat cub loves cake.
the thing is,
he doesn’t know if he prefers being a full wolf either.
he still likes dick,
but doesn’t like taking it or receiving head.
he doesn’t mind giving it tho.
maybe you’re a hybrid?”
he said he’s only attracted to masculine males,
but seems to only meet full wolves.
they want to fuck him and he isn’t interested.
so he feel stuck and confused about where he stands.
“would you ever top anyone?” – he asked me.
i’m okay with my decision to be a strict fox.
people use to make me feel very insecure being one.
almost like i was a leper,
yet the snow twinks could get a pass.
we all have gone through this in the life.
strict wolves after being foxes
masculine and feel uncomfortable being bent over
feminine and want to dominate masculine males
we have all felt those insecurities at one point or another.
i always enjoyed being a fox.
nothing makes me nut like a sexy wolf in between my thighs.
it takes a lot of exploring to figure out where you stand.
once you do,
things get a little easier tho.