you want to know how to find happiness?
the kind that makes you feel higher than god?
well i’m gonna tell you what i’m learning…
you need to trip,
and belly flop down “fuck shit” hill.
you need to hit every rock on the way down.
you need to feel pain,
like heavy hard core pain,
in order to be truly happy in life.
well let me not say heavy hard core pain,
but you need life to show you whats not working so you can fix it.
lets be real:
some of us want shit to be perfect
i know i do.
when you feel uncomfortable with your:
thats when you start plottin’.
thats when you start to realize you want more.
sometimes it takes a real hard push into bullshit creek to wake you up.
the sweet smell of fuck shit to get those motors running.
thats when you are open to making a change.
scars give you character
broken bones heal and grow stronger
experience makes you a teacher
knights don’t get a sword and armor until they are trained
even tho this job is bullshit,
and lord knows i chase the wrong wolves,
i am always constantly creating a plan for a better tomorrow.
it took a real fucked up journey to get here.
it hurt like hell,
and i got the scars to prove it,
but all these experiences have taught me how to be a stronger person.
i just need to remember to tap into that strength.
i keep forgetting where i came from and how i got here.
as my cousin hybrid said to me the other day:
“these people obviously forgot who i am”
he didn’t get there off top.
he had to go through his own set of shit to even utter those words.
look my safe person is dead.
i’m all alone trying to find my way.
i’m still searching for myself.
still trying to find my truth.
i want a place amongst the ranks.
to shine like a bar of gold.
it will be found.
once i do,
life will be much more interesting.
the same for you as well.