tired

when you get worn out and can’t leave the bed for hours.

i spent the last few days on my back.
worn out wasn’t the word.
i ended up sleeping a majority of the days.
you know how i said i had all these plans a few entries down?

Play: Zelda
Clean: My crib
Watch: “Queen’s Gambit”

well…

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i’m not in a good place today (what’s going on?)

foxhole…
after scrolling through my twitter timeline,
looking at friends ig stories in protest,
and seeing all frustration within the black community,
i just laid on my couch for about 20 minutes staring out the window.
things are so horrible right now.
from:

The Rona
All this racism
Black lives being taken
Unemployment at an all time high
The President doing absolutely nothing but just ranting

…and then my own personal life and the issues going on with mi.
it’s like i have no words at this moment about it all.
this is all i could muster up…

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mercury is fuckin’ me hard and i don’t like it.

i’m exhausted for whatever reason.
well,
i know the reason.
these last two weeks at work have been high priority drama.
it’s been extra busy for absolutely no reason.
for such a small office setting…

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sick and tired (no bullshit)

foxhole,
i wanted to font about some stuff today,
but i literally have no energy to do anything.
so i didn’t realize how sick i actually was.
it’s weird…

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they really want a doll house in wonderland

“hey jamari.
i know you’ve been here for a week.
you’ve done a pretty good job doing all of the basic tasks we asked for.
you’ve taken initiative to make sure the office is fully stocked and cleaned.
how are you feeling about this position?
is it something you’d be interested in?…”

in a perfect wonderland,
my current supervisor would run that paragraph by me.
nope.
i sat and watched all the interviews from my head huntress come in.
not only that…

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