this is one of my favorite pictures.
its muhammad ali looking at his latest victim,
sonny liston,
like:

sit cho blockhead ass down nugga
uh!

i want this picture framed after ive made it.
hanging right in my townhouse or condo.
in my living room.
every time i look at it,
it will represent the fight of my life.
always winning even if i thought that i lost.
i know the foxhole is always trying to prove ourselves.
its tiring ain’t it?
we put up a good fight tho.
belee dat!
life is funny.
its like we are always fighting.
fighting people.
fighting ourselves.
fighting our circumstances.
some people have it easy.
they don’t even need to step in the ring of life.
they win just off the strength.
others are always sparring.
always training.

the funny thing is…
these battles are always leading you to where you need to be.
that was my day today.
i’m going to start a timeline of how shit went down…
Continue reading “The Fight of my Life (Round 2015)” →

that was the look on my face.
i’ll get into why i was looking like that.
anyway so i stopped watching “love and hiphop: hollywood”.
i saw the second episode and was bored.
have we confirmed if that one chick is a transexual?
as you can see from my <—- #nowwatching,
i traded that show in for “gotham”.
one of my vixen buddies hit me up today about the mess that is teairra mari.
she performed on the show last night and well…
Continue reading “Has Teairra Mari Fallen Off? (Don’t Answer That)” →

i have been thinking about zen’s comment in the last entry.
zen is one of the foxhole’s loyal voices in the comment boxes.
you can read it ( x here ).
i understand where he is coming from.
i am not shy about admitting my struggles,
but i have started to notice something…
Continue reading “That Thing, That Thing, That Thii-iii-iii-iiiing” →

FOXMAIL

Jamari, I’ve been an avid reader of your site for almost a year and a half now. I must say I browse by it twice or more times a day- Ha! Over the months reading the struggle you’d been going through called life really had me at an awe.

Just like yourself, I’ve been out of work for a few months now. Things get harder and bills keep on adding up, man don’t I know. As well going on countless interviews and still not being promised anything. The amount of education you have does not promise you everything. In this city (DC) things aren’t cheap- just like NYC, I’m sure. Its hard to compete for any job here smh. 60 something percent of people that live in this city have at least their bachelors degree…talk about competition, huh? It’s days when I kick my own ass, but I constantly tell myself not to lose hope…..anyway. I just wanted to say congrats on the job and that you are an example to keep pursuing, man.

MY ANSWER…

Continue reading “f0xmail: Your Struggle Helped My Struggle” →

if you know me,
one of my favorite sentences in life is:

“i have a question?”

well since you all know me through this blog,
i have a question for all of you who read me daily.
have you ever asked yourself…

Am I doomed?
Can anyone honestly answer this?…

Continue reading “God, Forgive Them For Their Sins” →

i had half a sausage this morning and i’m still hungry…

have you eaten yet?
i mean, are you full?
i had to ask because i am starving.
i haven’t had anything fulfilling to eat in a while now.
maybe because i’m comfortable?
i don’t know…
i have noticed some of us are very hungry.
but, what are we doing?
are we waiting for some magical meal to pop out the sky?

i started to wonder…

Are you really where you need to be?

Continue reading “I Wanted It So Bad That I Just Put It All In My Mouth” →