Flip It Over

I have been thinking about something.

I have been hearing complaints from so many Foxes about the slim pickings in our lifestyle. I can’t even front because I have complained myself.

(The blog under this is definitely a COMPLAINT!)

When you are a Fox looking for a Daddy ala Devin Thomas-ish type – it can be like looking for Waldo in a bedroom sized poster. You know he is there but you just can’t find him…. Yet.

After a blog I wrote, I noticed a couple Foxes left me comments that traveled with me for a few days.

“Straight women should never complain because they have a huge selection to choose from.”

That maybe true BUT there is two sides to this coin. Trust me.

Side I.

We, as Foxes, want a good Wolf to be the exception and not the rule. We want a Wolf that is everything we dream of: preferably to look like a “straight” guy. Now before some of you need a crash helmet, let me explain. We want a guy that looks and acts like a guy. If I wanted pussy, this blog wouldn’t exist.

I have met, what seems to be bottom of the barrel in gay men. The worst of the worst. I have met niggas who are extremely unfashionable or extremely feminine. They don’t have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out of.

I met dudes who I would never call back if you paid me in penis. BUT, I have a lot met dudes that were so fine and exactly WHAT I was looking for. Due to my insecurity of not feeling good enough and not comfortable in my own skin, I am sure I was the one they would never call back.

It is funny because I always hear women say, “Damn all the cute/fine ones are gay.” They talk about the DL thugs or the DL husbands/boyfriends who they caught fucking some nigga in the back of a Monte Carlo.

Then there is:

Side II.

I know a lot of female Foxes. It comes with the territory when you are good looking with some kind of charm and charisma. I see a lot of my pretty females complaining they cannot find a good man. Even though they have a larger selection, doesn’t mean that they are happy with the pickings they get. Most of these cute fine dudes that are straight that we would date are mega hoes. The amount of talk I hear about certain dudes I think are Wolf material is such a damn turn off. Women also go beyond looks, whereas in our lifestyle, we are all about looks. That can be our greatest asset and worst enemy.

Real talk: Just because Devin Thomas is my ideal of Daddy, don’t make him a good person. I only see the fantasy of him inside me. He could be the biggest asshole on the East Coast with the dick the size of a Vienna cushion and the personality of a aardvark.

So Foxes, I wanted to let you know there are 2 sides to every story. Don’t always think the worst. There is much worst. Never compare yourself because you will be winning a losing battle. I stopped that recently. We are ALL looking for someone to love us. It may come soon or take a little longer but the love we have for ourselves should be top prior.

Plus, the grass is not always greener on the other side and a lot of times, that shit could be astro turf.

Later

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Season Finale?

Is looking for men over rated?

I had to ask myself that question, watching yet another movie dealing with love. If I’m not seeing it, then I’m hearing it through my speakers. If that’s not it, then I’m hearing about it from friends and loved ones.

Men, men, men + love (or ones idea of bad love desicions) and wild sex mixed in.

It’s almost becoming sickening especially when you aren’t involved with anyone at the moment. Yup, Jamari is actually cruising on Drought Street. I have been on a couple dates this year and none of the potential “men” were worth a call back. It was like was dating bottom of the barrel and I am far from it. They, of course, loved me but alas – I was over it mid date.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I was a female. Had my share of men I was attracted too. They have it so easy and they should. Boy sees girl and tries to hit on girl. Boy sees me and can’t tell if I’m gay so he moves on. It seems the type of man that I am attracted too comes in a “straight” Godiva wrapper. It leaves for a lot of lonely nights and even longer days.

Searching for a Devin, Dez, Trey, or whoever makes me hard is like looking for a needle in a haystack. Let’s face it, I may never get my Devin Thomas. Or, I may get him and he be a limp dick slut bag with STDs hiding under the flap of his dick. I kinda grew into looking past femininity. Ones person’s fem maybe one man’s dream lover. Let’s face it: we are gay and even the most masculine man has a tinge of bitch in em. Ask a female!

But I am kinda over the chat sites, DL sign language, and all that bs that comes with this lifestyle.

I kind of want to concentrate on my journey to the top. I can damn near buy what I want (I’m no Steve Jobs but I do pretty well for myself)…… so money is not really an option. What I don’t have in men, I make up for in Ben Franklin. I am focused on school and my career. I have a nice place to live and I try to make sure my wardrobe is poppin’….

But I get lonely and I am starting to see so do a lot of gay men. Its either a lot of sex or a lot of loneliness. Even these negros who are in relationships are lonely. Its bullshit. Maybe if I was a wreckless whore, I would be happy… But I’m not. Thank GOD for parents who raised me right. Plus I know wreckless whores and their walls are damn near hanging down to their kneecaps (I kid, I kid). But guess what, whores of all shapes and forms get lonely too.

So is Jamari Fox over? HELL NO. I have just begun. I just think I need to focus on me and what is important (pretty much me) for right now.

So all in all, I want you to join me. I want us, you and me, to find what we are looking for and maybe find a potential man along the way. But if he doesn’t show face – we will still be okay.

Not jaded but optimistic. This is the first step in recovery.

Let’s get it.

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Hey Foxes.

Life has been pulling me from left to right; up and down. Things have been somma good, somma bad, and somma inbetween. But a Fox has been rolling with the punches as they come.

I feel GOOD because life is GOOD.

So lately, I have been meeting wolves but no one has pulled my tail. Some are way to thristy. Some are way to boring. And worst of all, they have no swagg to keep me entertained.

Married Guy has bored me. Or is starting to really boring me, to be honest. You can only sext for so long before you move on.

Aside from that, I have been invited to a lot of straight events lately, and the way I see these dudes look and act with females – I wonder if me and my friends (and you Foxes) are in a world of our own? Its not a masc/fem issue. I always meet a dude and he is looking at me the way I look at the straights. Admiring how I carry myself, the way I dress, and the way I speak.

Most gays, or black gays, are about drama and messiness. They are not “together” like they should. It is outing and just pulling each other down. This Fox is not. I guess that’s why I only roll with a few selective people.

Another thing, why does it seem most (well in my case) TOPS are “bottom of the barrel”? Like, style and swagg is just a double expresso negative. Dirty shoes or looking two seasons behind in style. Is there an exclusive circle where the REAL wolves are?

I may need the VIP pass so I can finally be around the Wolves that keep my mouth watering. I want better. I want more.

Do you want more?

I guess this was a vent. I feel relieved in some way.

Later Foxes.