today is the last time we would be meeting up.
i’ve been sad about it for the last few weeks,
but it would be selfish of me to try to hold onto someone who needed to go.
i didn’t cry,
but i felt this joy with the idea of this new me getting back into the world.

Jamari Fox is back on the market.

he spoke so highly of me before we officially ended it…

Continue reading “we ended it today.” →

in some cases,
some rape victims can fall in love with their rapists.
in some cases,
some people fall in lust with dangerous hyenas who commit crimes.
that is a lot of unpacking to do with the help of therapy tbh.
you’ll be surprised by the amount of damage we are carrying from youth.
an f-bi sent me the following tweet and asked me:

Would you?

and well…

Continue reading “i fell in love with my shooter and now he shoots in me every night?” →

depending on what you ask my cousin hybrid,
he will tell you that he hates the movie,
scream.
why?

I watched it 20,000 times.

scream was the first scary movie i ever watched.
i am scared of michael myers tho.
that opening sequence with drew barrymore was one of the best in hollywood history.
i remember being so scared and trying to figure out the killer.
the thought of a killer terrorizing someone by phone was so interesting to me.
i’m so obsessed with that i bought the trilogy box set on dvd.
what is a dvd even mean these days?
when they announced they were released scream 5,
you already guessed that i was gonna be excited af.

i waited patiently for the trailer and it finally dropped it today…

Continue reading “the foxhole doesn’t know how much i love the movie scream” →

nivea is a mess.
like,
she is always in something when it comes to the male species.
i always liked some of her past songs,
but never was interested in a full album purchase.
i don’t know what nivea has been doing these days,
but for the latest scandal,
it seems to involved “his good dick“.
this is who the alleged good dick was attached to:

…darrell patterson aka @iamtherealdp,
a personal trainer down in atl.
wasn’t he allegedly doing personal training with steven beck at one point?
nivea decided to share about her situation with him via ig stories…

Continue reading “nivea adds “i was in love with the personal trainer” to her new album playlist” →

i’ve been trying to play my nintendo switch more.
it is such an awesome system to have.
it’s portable and the graphics are chef kiss.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5uik5fgIaI

with my gaming group,
i’ll usually play more dead by daylight on ps4,
but i’m just too good and not feeling as challenged.
a friend,
in the gaming group,
has been playing a game on the switch and wanted to play with me once i got it.
ya’ll…
Continue reading “i’ve found a new game to play on my nintendo switch that i’m obsessed with” →

in 2002-03ish,
after wandering in the city all day,
a friend “who i don’t know anymore” suggested we go to toys r us that was in time square.
she wanted to meet up with a girl who worked there that she met online.
i didn’t want the day to end so i was down.
when i first saw the girl we were meeting,
i said to myself:

“Wow,
she looks really stressed out and over it.
SEE this is why I don’t do retail.”

and

“I really dig this girl’s energy,
but we will probably never see each other again.”

The Universe made sure that wouldn’t happen.
a year or two later,
we reconnected on the blogging platform,
xanga.
she hopped in my comments and i did the same in hers.
we would write entries about our frustrations and loneliness.
the folks who broke our hearts; the ones who got away.
the main theme for us was trying to find that perfect love.
toys r us and that friend “who i don’t know anymore” both brought us stress,
and ironically don’t exist any longer either,
but they were the starting point in planting the seed for this friendship to grow.
when i look back at the first time we met until now,
i ask myself:

Who knew from that moment we met that our “us” would become this?

i get to write another story on my own platform about us.
last sunday in brooklyn,
she got married to your soulmate…

Continue reading “to my special one.” →