i admire those who can live beyond their minds.
the ones who aren’t shackled in the dungeons within it depths.
your mind will really play tricks on you.
it’ll have you feeling like you don’t belong and shouldn’t exist.
sometimes,
it’ll replay past traumas that can cripple you.
i’ve been there and still there.
some days are better than others.
it can be a real struggle to find my worth.
this is one of the reasons i’m so glad mental health is being talked about.
in the black community,
it is often swept underneath the rug.
we’re told most white people are supposed to be weaker mentally,
as they tend to kill themselves due to their own mental illnesses,
but survey says that’s a whole lie as of late.
kofi siriboe,
who is one of the stars in own’s “queen sugar”,
and the epitome of fine af,
released a short film he wrote and produced about mental health.
it’s called “jump” and i wanted to show it to the foxhole…

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am i the only one who uses siri?
like,
she isn’t perfect,
but she does the basics that i need.

– set a timer when i’m cooking
– send a quick text
– put my phone on dnd

easy shit.
well siri is about protect you against these hunters too.
if you ever get pulled over,
she is about to come through with the receipts.
this is what i read from “usa today”…
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as much as i am looking for love…

Will I know how to really love a male?

it’s a real question.
as you know,
i love a male who works out and has his bawdy right.
when i first see him,
i think of all the things i want to do to him sexually.
this might span over a course of 2 months,
give or take.
it’s very superficial in the beginning stages of any gay/bi relationship.

What happens past “I’m sticking around”?

when the honeymoon phase is over and the real shit starts?
like,
the moment he shows he’s a human with feelings underneath it all…

Will I be able to handle it tho?

or will i go…

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i haven’t laughed this loud in a while.
i needed it.
tonight’s episode of insecure,
“high-like”,
was probably the best episode of the season.
the squad took the turn up to coachella and the antics tho…
it was pure shenanigans as only issa could bring.
i’m gonna give a few thoughts…

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even though i’m going through a serious depression,
i can’t act like i don’t have good ones in my life.
my friends and the foxhole.
some days are tough,
but thank you for standing you with me.
so i’ve been wanting this game for a while now.
“detroit: become human”.

i love a good story when i play a game.
even though i’m legit addicted to “dead by daylight”,
which is all about surviving from/being a killer,
“detroit: become human” is something more.
in this game,
you chose where the story will go.
you pick the direction for the characters.
whatever you choose will unlock the rest of the story.
it reminds me of “tell tales: the walking dead”.

the first two chapters of that game were so intense.
i legit cried at one of the deaths in that one.
one of my gamer friends knows i’ve been dealing with a lot.
“why come” last night i got a text from said gamer friend….

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thank God for streaming.
i know ya’ll listening to some interesting shit.
it’s okay.
i think it makes you cultured.
so ever since i saw the “white boy rock” trailer…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6GAPu-cBs4

which i think is one of the best trailers of this year,
i’ve been obsessed with the background song.
it has been one of my favorite songs for a while.
the beat is so hypnotic.
it’s…
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