after the jill scott x erykah badu “verzuz” when we were locked down in the rona,
someone defined them as:

“jill’s music is thank you for the experience.
erykah’s music is thank you for experiencing me.”

that continues to live rent free in my head.
jill scott had an interview with angie martinez that also lives rent free in my head.
she touched on a lot of points.

one point she brought up bought up the whole building in my head.

“dom/sub“ (dominant submissive)

that is what jill described herself as.
the first part is how you move through the forests,
while the second part is how you want to feel in love/sex.
a “dom/sub“ is…

first of all,
i love “industry” on HBO MAX.
i randomly started watching it when it was heading into the 3rd season.
binged it in like 2 days or so.
its got the sex,
drugs,
and “something to nothing” shit i love.
highly recommend even though when they start talking finance and stock shit,
i am always left feeling confused.

last night,
they came back for their 4th season.

Foxhole:

IT WAS GOOD.

i needed that energy especially after what i’m dealing with.
there is a scene that i’m still thinking about.
this is kinda spoiler but not really.
it doesn’t give away a plot point but…

some vixens drive me crazy with this shit…

so as you know,
or didn’t,
i was displaced out of my home of over 15+ years.
i’m in a whole new forest,
temporarily(?),
as i get back on all my paws.
Foxhole:

the males here are FINE.

we will font about them when i start mingling.
i don’t want to shit where i eat buttttttttttttt:

ima be strategic with my mouth and hole.

anyhoo,
a vixen started talking to me yesterday and was filling me in.
so there is a gay male that is really poppin’ on socials here.
so she gonna ask me if the males in his videos are also gay.

strike 1

so i said i don’t know,
and even if i did,
that’s not my story to tell.
this is what she gonna say to me in response…

the meme i saw with ^that picture was:

“if a vixen ever look at you like this,
just know she disgusted and glad U not her man.”

i think more Foxholers need to look at attentionistos like this.
one of my fav responses to another male that’s talkin’ nonsense:

“what are you even talmbout sir?!”

…and i’m say it in a joking way but i’m dead serious.
if i’m fonting,
i’ll add “lol” or the laughing emoji for good measure.

i love is verbal sparring.

not in the “real housewives of hip-hop” way,
although that has it’s place,
but when we are talking/fonting to other males.
there is something so sexy about being quick witted and lowkey flirtatious.
it is a skill that we have but i think many of us need to get out of our heads.
i watched the interview with cam newton and rapping vixen,
lady london…

going to someone door,
laying on the floor like you’re at a sex party,
with your tail up in the air might work for some in the past.

that doesn’t mean that works for others.

in my head,
some gay jackals are too horny for their own good.
males in general can be too horny for their own goods…

…but when you go out of your way to cause chaos to someone else’s boundaries?

i saw a video where a gay jackal was at @mistamanny_ door,
on the nasty ass ground,
with his tail up in the air for a package to be put inside it…

whenever you are at a transition in your life,
you end up at a bridge.
on the other side of the bridge is uncertainty.
we don’t know what will happen,
but we do know where we are isn’t working.
i believe when life gets uncomfortable,
you are pushed towards the bridge against your will.
so we end up with a few choices:

a – we slowly walk across the bridge to get to the other side
b – we turn back around and go back to what we are use to
c – we stay stagnant at the start of the bridge without crossing

but what happens when you are uncomfortably pushed towards a bridge…