i like to believe that some wolves i met liked the IDEA of me,
but are terrified of the emotions they feel because of me.
meaning:

they come in my life,
become hooked off my energy and vibe,
sexually attracted to me,
but still wanted to make sure i knew they liked vixens.

…yet,
when they dropped by mask,
they were a whole different person with me.
its like you get the boyfriend without the title.
i do believe that is why many of our ends felt like “break ups”.
i think many gay males have experienced this with DL and bi males.

society has taught them they need to be with vixens,
but they have a special closeness with other males.
they still treat vixens like shit,
but will do almost anything for another male.

if you happened to be a gay male they got close to,
they’ll do everything BUT claim.
so everyone is riled up over what this bi male said today.
@theycallmehits said he is only sexually attracted to other males…

i took my ass back to therapy today.
i didn’t realize just how bad living with that person hurt me.
it was actually really affecting me mentally,
spiritually,
and emotionally.
after i told my new therapist everything that went down,
that i had to compress within an hour,
they said…

i thinkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i’m over it.
i dunno,
but i’m just over it.
it was weird how fast i snapped out of it to.

sidebar: i really think living with that demon i stayed with changed me.

one minute,
i was so excited about him looking in my direction again.
i couldn’t wait to get on The Foxhole and font about it,
but then i did something after feeling a touch of “perfectionism” come over me…

he came back.
i was waking up last saturday morning,
and i decided to check my story views,
and my first thought when i saw his @ :

“wait,
am i still sleeping?”

he watched every single one of my stories too.
when i font i JUMPED out of bed.
after all these years,
he was all up in my stories.
the wild part is…

we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
celebrities speaking out does little than next to nothing.
we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
free speech will get you fucked up out here.
we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
when they do say something:

many of our favs are two seconds away from saying some dumb shit on an IG press release.

that is how i feel about p!nk right now.
boyyyyy,
did she ( x annoy me with that shit ).
i was JUST listening to her first album too.
ugh.
i’ve been one to expect a celeb to speak up to make me feel seen,
but i’ve been getting so disappointed with some of those people.
i’ve noticed that anytime some shit is going down:

everyone is expecting beyonce to say something.

the same bey that doesn’t even tell us an album is dropping.
this flew by on my x-twitter timeline and i was likeeeeeeee…

i love when the Foxohole has a past story that gets a update,
especially a good “we know whodunit“.
we lovvvvvvvvvvvve a good whodunit round dese hind parts.
if i’m lucky,
many of ya’ll got the inside scoop too.

we all thought julian taylor morris dun it.

remember ( x this story ) when his late manz,
deundray cottrell,
turned up dead in a shed and julian’s first instinct was to go missing.

sidebar: that is always the first sign of guilt for me.
yo ass should be at the station cooperating with law enforcement.

putting on the track shoes and skipping town?

julian comes back,
IG update a new manz,
and is all over rih’s social media like he got a new attitude.
well one thing hyenas don’t realize is:

the F-BI gon’ F-BI.

they think they got away with it,
but the F-BI is building a case.
they are watching everything so when they come knocking,
they got enough evidence to bring the whole house of cards down.
it seems julian’s alleged house of cards came down cause via “foxatlanta“…