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WHEN WE ROLE PLAY: (64)

*this is actually based on a dream i had last night.
i literally just woke up to write about it before i forgot.

you won a contest where you had full backstage privileges at a concert.
so you are sitting there,
watching everything that happens backstage.
the artist speaks to you candidly,
gives you high fives after each set,
and really showing you they are as down to earth as they portray.
well while back there this vixen:

…kept interacting with said artist as you observed.
somehow you both end up talking.
she tells you she the new assistant to the artist.
she got hired a few weeks ago and loves it.
well it goes from talking to her flirting with you HEAVY.
she’s saying how good you look,
how you would make a good boyfriend to some lucky girl,
and making jokes about she will to sleep with you,
but you can tell by her stares and body language she is dead serious.
she is actually coming off really THIRSTY.
oh the artist she works for and concert you were at?…

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This Is What Happens When I Go To Sleep Mad. I End Up Dying!

i had this dream that i died last night.
before i went to bed,
i wrote an entry and it completely fucked up.
i was pissed and just said fuck it.
i took a shower and climbed in bed.
knocked out immediately.
funny enough,
after a dream like that,
i woke up so calm.
let me try to remember everything about the dream…

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I Think You Need Some Coffee Because You Look Tired Boo.

i needed to watch this.
won’t lie,
woke up feeling a little defeated.
things are moving slow.
slow and shaky.
life is not being fair.
but,
in between the tears,
i still believe.
i believe something better is out there for me.
this can’t be “it”.
all the bad treatment and the hurt…
was that for nothing?
was i given this talent to write for it to be nowhere?
was i put here on earth to suffer?
there are so many other people who are suffering.
so many people who are living in hell and have everything.
it’s not me.
i don’t think so.
but it’s my mind that will keep me contained.
keep me stagnant.
“you’re not good enough.”
“you will never make it.“
“you will never get a job.“
“you will be ~~doomed.~~“
it’s that voice.
that is what makes you “not make it”.

i came across these video and it was like coffee for a tired soul..

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I Gave Head In Someone Else’s Apartment Last Night

I guess it starred YOU, WOLF, because I don’t know who “he” was.

I had the most intense sex dream last night.
It traveled with me the entire day.
I woke up and nearly started to masturbate.
In in the dream, it starred some Wolf I never met, Me… and a Fox.