control.
oftentimes,
we have a need and a desire to be in control of other people.
that can create a lot of resentment and a breeding ground for toxic situations.
when we are out of control,
that is when the real “us” comes flying out.

Insecure
Panic
Jealousy
Envy
Letting all kinds of disrespect slide
Being nasty and disrespectful to others

on the low,
my mother had showed me how she was self control in relationships.
she had a big learning lesson with her first husband but she learned quick.
when she entered relationships after that,
and it was revealed that many of them were actually jackals in disguises…

as someone who lives for clout,
grayling purnell might have had a lapse of judgment recently.
( x we talked about him here )
a foxholer hit me with the alleged following and disturbing video.
it was grayling throwing it to his ex(?) young piece.
by “it”,
i mean the hallway…

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i know you want to fuck me,
and i definitely want you to,
but i asked myself yesterday…

Would you make a good boyfriend?

hell,
even a friend?
your actions contradict my fantasies.
that was the thought i woke up with on my spirit today…

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i did it with work wolf.
i did it with many others i once knew.
it was the last card i pulled in hopes to see where we stood.
i figured it would save me when i felt i was gonna crash.
nope.
i still maintained the most injuries in the end.
it makes me cringe when i think about it…

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i’m starting to think dealing with other folks is like ^that maze above.
some days,
you think you’re on the right path and direction.
the next,
you bumping into dead ends and falling through trap doors.
one of the reasons i sit my ass down until I’M READY now.
i wish i did the same when dealing with males tho.
when dealing with the same sex,
it’s navigating in the dark with a lit match.
i’ve come to learn that everyone wants “control”,
but males are the worst with how they go about it.
take this “straight” wolf that loves to boldy flirt with me…

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while watching 50 shades of grey today,
i had to ask myself:

“would i let a baller wolf do this to me?”

as sexy as i like a wolf to control me,
and i’m not afraid to tied up in the sake of pleasure,
christian grey came off as a damn near an emotional abuser.
okay so (and kinda spoilers)…
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