blessings.
they can come at any time when we least expect them.
i think that is the beauty of life that we don’t realize.
sometimes,
God can throw us a bone or a whole carcass.
remember ( x this entry ) that i wrote?
after i wrote it,
i had felt a release and acceptance after.
when i let go of something (or someone) and move on,
magic always happens.
i got an email a week later from one of my foxholers asking…

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one of my biggest issues in life is feeling fomo.
it stems from my childhood.
being last to be picked in gym class,
not feeling noticed by my family,
and just never feeling like i belong or accepted anywhere.

FOMO or Fear of missing out feels like you are missing something that will make you feel like you belong or are complete.

…but do we really feel complete if we are still feeling empty inside?
i cannot afford bey this year.
she got cut for other priorities i got going on.
i’m in that weird “in between blessings” transition period.
i really wanted to go and when i saw all of these videos on twitter…

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a few people i know aren’t into beyonce as many are.
when i asked why,
because i’m always curious,
they told me they don’t like all the cursing and ratchetness she does.
i mean,
thats fine.
stephanie mills said beyonce isn’t like diana ross,
who many have compared her to in the past (destiny’s child era).
she said beyonce is more “hip hop” than glamourous diana ross…

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on another side of the black vixen superstar coin,
beyonce seems to be getting it from all sides these days.
#protectblackwomen ?
some folks sure don’t like bey in this era of her life.
i remember some church folks were TIGHT about her song,
“church girl“.
( x see it here )
that happens to be one of my fav songs off the album.
a pastor named tiphani montgomery thinks bey is a witch.
according to the neighborhood talk…

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joe budden has had some really interesting takes as of late.
first,
the whole ( x “i’m was only joking about bisexual” ).
secondly,
everything he said about megan the stallion in support of tory lanez.

now he has the hive FUMING over what he said about beyonce.
according to joe budden,
he says ya’ll know her last album,
“renaissance“,
was trash.
he goes on to say the hive went quiet cause no one was playing it…

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late ’97 into early ’98.
3 pop divas,
all different,
created musical magic based on their various experiences.

One was dealing with the freedom that came from leaving her ex-husband.
One was dealing with depression from an unfaithful husband.
One was dealing with continuing her relevancy within a changing culture.

butterfly (september ’97).
the velvet rope (october ’97).
ray of light (february ’98).
this is how the holy trinity was formed.

sidebar: i personally listen to the velvet rope first,
butterfly,
and end it with ray of light.

each album was raw,
transparent,
and honest.
by the end of the albums,
you felt a shift.
it is said these albums are their magnum opus.
many gay males found solace and strength within their lyrics.
each of their albums has helped me overcome in some way.
the ig foxhole has been poppin’ about this since i posted it first there.
i wanted to circle back to 2016 tho…

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