have you ever been in a situation,
where you know something is ending or change is coming,
but it doesn’t really hit you until it’s coming?
you can talk all day about wanting to move out your forest,
but as soon as the week or day before,
you suddenly start getting sad and feeling regret.
well welcome to that magical place called “the comfort zone”.
it’s a place where you can feel happiness or content,
but feel attached to what you are use to.
so my entire department was pulled into a big meeting today…
we were all called to discuss the move.
well it seems this move has been pushed up.
we already got assigned boxes and labels for whats staying and going.
the part that makes me vex is i actually loved the area i was at.
it was in the heart of the city.
now i’m going to west bum fuck without a clothing store in sight.
i also hate none of the job interviews called me back.
a part of me was hoping i could have thrown up the duecez.
in the midst of looking at the floor plan,
i noticed some of the departments won’t be in this new building.
work wolf is not moving with us
his team is actually going somewhere else.
he is leaving way after i leave and will still be in the area.
i know this may sound stupid to say,
but i suddenly felt sad.
we don’t speak anymore but i guess the reality hit me today.
the reality is that i won’t see him anymore.
i guess my comfort zone was use to being in his radar.
the bad part is,
i should be really saying he won’t be in mine.
i should be glad to be rid of him,
but another part of me is in my feelz for some odd reason.
i take full responsibility for my emotions today
i actually don’t want to feel this way,
but i do.
i won’t make any apologies about it.
i hate that i made my life too comfortable around his.
one that has been dismissed a long time ago.
Am i stupid?
i must be.
low-key: well i hope to meet new like minded animals,
and bring some new meat into my life.
i always look forward to that.