it’s been a tough road in this new mind state i’m trying to be in.
everyday it seems like i’m been tested,
but i’m still trying to hold on strong.
i will admit tho,
a comment during a discussion we had made me feel a little discouraged.
it was during ( x the messy attentionisto sheriff’s ) comment fox talk.
this is what was said…
i got a little sad about that.
i don’t know why.
b) gay for pay
now mind you,
it’s attentionistos who roam the social media forests.
they often do something strange for a little change.
it’s hard to meet potentials in real life,
so we all get sucked up in the social media vacuum.
whether it’s ig or jack’d.
same story; different site.
i had to wonder if there are any wolves out there:
not mixxy in the gay forests
in whatever shade of black
…or does “that” even exist?
i straight up lied to myself the other day.
i was just telling a foxholer that maybe its better to be single,
but pay for the wolves you’re attracted to come and break your back.
when you’re done,
send them on their way until you get the funds for another session.
coming from me,
that is a lie.
that is what i want to tell myself so i look “together”.
i’m working on it tho.
the problem is the “gay for pay” wolves won’t fuck you good.
they are looking at you as a job.
they won’t stick around to lay up and fall asleep with you.
he won’t passionately dick you down because he’s into you.
they not trying to even know you period.
that dick is hard because of the money on the nightstand.
I want a wolf whose dick gets hard for me
when he sees me when he comes to pick me up from work,
his dick becomes concrete.
when we fight and he starts to miss me…
the way i laugh or how awkward i am…
when he smells my cologne wafting off my neck…
when i bend over to pick up his heart…
whatever the bat mobile is made out of.
i want a wolf to be hard because he loves me.
i want to experience what it’s like to be loved because we’re into each other.
what a hard dick feels like from a wolf in love with you.
you can’t pay for someone to stick around and do that.
that is one thing money can’t buy.