Regrets or nah?

I was really into a wolf-turned-jackal.
I though he was cute and I wanted to fuck.
It seemed like he was on the same page as I was.
Someone else was into him too and I ended up in this weird triangle situation.
It ended up turning into this big mess where I ended up being the villain.
For a long time,
I regretted even being interested.
I blamed myself because others were blaming me.
I’ve come to conclusion that I wasn’t wrong for my feelings.
Everyone involved wasn’t wrong for how they felt.
He was interested in me and another couldn’t figure it out.
That doesn’t sound like a “me” problem.
I should be more mad because I wanted to fuck and that got ruined.

I wrote an entry last year.
It involved someone who I knew much about prior.
I’m sent in stories that appear to be juicy and I like sharing with The Foxhole.
I posted the story without even giving much thought.
It was an entry that you had to have access to see so it wouldn’t be on Google.
It created such a mess and it STILL has someone feeling upset.
I blamed myself because I questioned whether I should have posted the story.
I’ve come to the conclusion that folks have misdirected anger towards me.

regrets.
we all have them.
there are things we have done that we look back and shake our heads.
i’ve learned something about another aspect of having regrets tho…

Other people have made me feel regret when I initially didn’t.

i wanted to fuck that man.
i wanted to post a drop that i was sent in.
i wanted to stay home instead of going out that night.
i wanted to take a left when i could have gone right.

it wasn’t until i was guilt tripped or made to be villainous that i had regrets.
my initial reaction was:

“I wanted to do it but it didn’t work out.”

so i had to wonder if we really regret certain situations…

Or do we regret how other people treated us after it was all said and done?

whatever we do in life,
it may work or it may not.
we should try to not live with regrets tho.
there is always a lesson in every situation.

lowkey: shadow work is helping me see things so much differently now.