after my last few horrible situations with smoking weed,
i decided that i had quit.
last night,
i was offered a gummy and i took it.
indica.
i was told it was a different high than getting it from a blunt.
i never had one before but i’m on vacation so why the hell not?
i took half but i started wondering why i wasn’t getting high.
this is where i took the other half like 15 minutes later.

Foxhole…

i knew it kicked in when i started laughing at the wall for no reason.
i noticed how my mind was trying to fight off negative thinking.
every time i got high,
i would get attacked by my own mind.
i could never relax.

Paranoia
Anxiety
Low self-esteem
Negative thoughts
“Why does he like me?”

this time,
i took control to pour in positivity and see my self-worth.
i applied all the things i learned in therapy.

What are the facts?
Changing the narrative
“Is this true?”
I’m a dope person

i realized something else too:

I could probably fuck for HOURS while being high

i was so horny with the strain.
i busted about 8 times back to back.
i thought i was done jackin’ off but i went for more and more.

after being restless af,
i decided to listen to music to calm myself down.
i wanted to hear how music sounded in my airpods.
this playlist had me feeling like i was flying.

i decided to finish the white lotus to cut down on the horniness.
at this point,
i found a nice spot in the bed and couldn’t move.
one thing i liked:

I noticed every subtle detail,
color schemes,
and layers that were in the final two episodes.
My mind was open and I peeped everything.

10/10; will recommend.
i am willing to add gummies to my diet.