thoughts at 3am.
i love when i’m laying in bed and have this urge to cum to the foxhole.
it means i was really in my head about something.
i had to get this off tonight.
it couldn’t wait until morning.
i said i wouldn’t mention “work wolf” again,
but i’ll say this…
i have come to realize that i need to relax.
there needs to be a heavy “go with the flow” for 2016.
i am the type that needs to know what is happening.
i don’t like when i’m not in control.
so when i’m forced to wonder or guess,
it makes my mind go into a tail spin.
i start blaming and beating myself up at the “twists and turns”.
i had to wonder…
When did I start getting so uptight about shit?
i remember when readers were telling me about work wolf:
“you need to ask him if he is gay.”
“you should walk up to him and stick your tongue in his mouth.”
“go grab his dick and get the party started…”
that all sounds like a recipe for disaster.
you can’t do those things to anyone who isn’t comfortable.
hell you don’t know anything so why even assume?
not of that ever ends well.
you always have to go with the flow when things are confusing.
we all want answers,
but sometimes its best to just let the knots unravel.
they need to do it.
you need to concentrate of being good company.
i am terrified of heights.
the thought of jumping out a plane or bungee jumping makes me sick.
i am not comfortable with any of that.
so imagine bringing me to a place,
where i have to go higher than 4 stories,
and telling me to attach a string to my back and leap.
how do you think ima feel?
i might just shit my pants.
i have to be ready to even attempt to do anything like that.
it has to happen on my time,
because if i have a heart attack or pass out,
i’m going to always blame you.
we do things because other people “think its a good idea”.
when we do it,
we may get a temporary high.
highs always wear off after a while.
so we end up blaming the person(s).
it helps to victimize us from the “embarrassment”.
so when it comes to wolves/hybrids/and foxes,
who have your mind all over the place like a “work wolf” did/does,
its best to just let the chips fall where they may.
if it happens; it happens
if it don’t; you got shit to do
he may just feel comfortable just emotionally dating.
that maybe him taking his first steps.
i don’t know.
i do know to never attempt to make someone do something they aren’t ready to do.
once their body,
and soul has connected to the “idea”,
then that’s when they’ll take the initiative.
you and i were there at one point.
…and that’s it.
i hope that made some kind of sense to someone out there.
it’s not for everyone.