I couldn’t help but wonder:
How far are you willing to go for revenge?

last night,
i watched a movie that blew me away.
randomly,
there was an ad about it that peaked my interest.
when i watched,
it raised my anxiety in the best possible way.
even today,
i can’t stop thinking about it.
it’s called “femme“,
and it stars george mackay and nathan stewart-jarrett,
and the premise is something many of us Foxholers understand all too well…

I couldn’t help but wonder:
Do we all carry a secret fantasy,
a vision of revenge that keeps us going through the toughest times?

i have this secret fantasy in my head.
a clear vision of how i’d like my life to turn out.
it’s what keeps me going as i suffer.
it’s a vision of me finally happy…

I had a friend who didn’t take the vaccine.
She was adamant about not taking it even though I did.
Whenever she would hear alleged bad news about taking the vaccine,
she would always say:

“Ya’ll went and took that vaccine…”
“Ya’ll this…”
“Ya’ll that…”

…and i found that shit to be really disrespectful.
i was about two seconds from cussin’ her ass TF out.
like…

a breakup
a job loss
rejection
the death of someone close to us
setbacks that make us question our path
being ostracized from people we thought were our friends/family
struggling to accept not being straight
being violated and no one wants to listen or believe you/sides with the abuser

all these unwelcome guests can open the door to depression.
one moment…

long-term relationships that end up in marriage usually don’t work out.
i see it all the time with the straights,
so why should the gays be any different?
take sean (don) soto and his (maybe ex) husband,
charlie,
for example.
an F-BI sent me a message that had me do a little snooping…

I want everyone to look at this picture.

many of us are scared of this picture.
why?
well…