Have you ever felt like your life is lowkey under construction,
but you’re the only one standing in the rubble with no blueprint in sight?

i think i finally understand addiction.
that quiet but slippery kind.
it’s where you’re just trying to feel anything “other than”.
we don’t always run to crack.
sometimes it’s just retail therapy,
drink throughout the week,
subbin’ aimlessly to find the best onlyfans,
or racking up trophies through fucking.
anything to dodge the weight pressing down on your chest.
anything to avoid the silence where the truth lives.

i’ve been there lately.
not just emotionally,
but physically cornered.
trapped.
it’s like i’ve been living in a house with no doors,
no windows,
and just a constant draft of bad energy.
that house tho?
that is my current home…

I can smell this picture.

it’s no secret that males with money pay for companionship.
they skip to the front of the line and head straight into VIP.
there are some who use their money to be predatory,
but there are others who are genuinely looking to purchase connections.
i’ve heard stories of rich males who pay for more than sex.
they actually drop dollars for intimacy.
they’ll hire an escort to have dinner and talk.
no sex on the menu.
they are lonely,
can’t trust everyone,
and it’s easier to purchase loyalty.
i know what you’re thinking.

Well,
shit,
I’m available.

…but that is the thing about males who are in a higher tax bracket.
THEY pick who they’ll drop dollars on.
sometimes they pick good and other times…
well,
everyone meet datari austin.

he makes so much bank that…

Do men brag because they’re proud…
or because they’re hiding their true nature?

we can always count on a male to tell us how big his dick is.
the details won’t be spared on how well he plans to use it on us.
he’ll brag about how thick his wallet is and how flashy his lifestyle looks on paper.
at first glance,
it all sounds like confidence.
we’re blinded by the flex of the biceps or the wallet.
i’ve learned that true confidence is quiet tho.
all the other shit is performance enhancing drugs.
the moment we demand something real from him:

Support
Presence
A fuckin’ backbone

the mask starts to slip and what’s underneath?
it’s not not strength or not maturity…

thank you cc: ( x hypebeast ).
so we got a new pope last week.
robert francis prevost donned the new robe,
but it has our current president’s base in a tizzy.
( x see why they are pissed with a T )
eek.
i had to wonder tho:

Is it wrong to lust after a wolf of the cloth?

because i think i may be sinning heavy…

I don’t know if I was dreaming or what,
but I think I watched a documentary that a Foxholer suggested to me about black dandies.
For the life of me,
I cannot remember the name but it was about African dandies who live in a poor town or something.

anyhoo,
i really enjoyed many of the looks at the met gala this year.
(some of) the fashions gave drama and decadence.
you can tell who did their homework.
the theme this year was about black dandyism and had a 98% black committee.
black dandyism was used as a political statement.
learning pharrell had lisa from BLACKPINK wear rosa parks on her crotch:

BLACKPINK’s Lisa’s Met Gala Outfit Faces Backlash Over Underwear Featuring Rosa Parks https://t.co/llTtSptLbD #MetGala #LisaXMetGala2025 #Lisa pic.twitter.com/lH6FbmQTQC

— ktotheworld (@ktotheworld11) May 6, 2025

that was not the tribute he thought it was.
it was tone deaf at best; performance art at worst.
i still don’t know what the hell he had sabrina carpenter wearing:

it giving ringmaster at the circus.
i don’t even want to get into that symbolism with a white vixen.
tiktok had thoughts and i watched a video that put things into perspective…

it’s so ironic that i used that picture on Foxhole stories the day of the met gala.
i loved the outfit and thought the model was handsome.
in my creativity,
i duct taped that pic with a fox head and fonted:

“attending the Met Gala in spirit.”

i saw this tiktok about the model in the actual picture,
even though he is the face of the promo for the met gala this year,
he is actually working a 9-5 or a 6-9.

This is the reality of many of us who haven’t given up.

what self help tiktok or manifestation twitter doesn’t tell you…