tonight was interesting.
i had a lot of fun.
it was good to see everyone.
they were happy to see me.
i damn near have been hibernating all winter.
didn’t really go anywhere,
and if i did,
it was solo or a duet.
a lot has changed in my friend’s lives.
lives have been upgraded.
i couldn’t help but wonder:

what about me?

i felt almost embarrassed.
everyone had something to talk about.
everyone was doing something.
new homes.
new jobs.
new careers.
i just listened.
pageant smile.
all i could think about was getting my life in order.
being in a better place.
could afford to buy a new outfit.
i’m grateful god has provided me with so much already,
but i’m anxious.
when will it be my turn?
when will i have stories to share?
am i not doing something i should be?

overall,
i’m happy to have gotten out the house.
my outfit?
it was great until the temperature dropped.
lesson learned.
don’t get naked just yet.
i nearly froze my buns off.

lowkey: i never noticed how many vixens in ny have fat asses.
maybe i never noticed?
i am always looking at some wolf.
i saw sexy vixens everywhere tonight.
funny enough,
no wolf caught my eye.

lowkey2: white people are so clueless.
phones/tablets out for robbers to take notice.
i don’t get it.
this homeless lady peed on the train.
you could smell the pee.
it was rank.
these white vixens went and stood in it.
how could they not notice?