it all started when i saw “don’t cha” from pcd fly down my timeline the other day.
i said in a tweet:
“this song always made me feel like an unapologetic whore”
that has been my life tbh.
the dicks of taken wolves always got hard whenever i came around.
i will be transparent in admitting that i enjoyed the attention.
i told the pretty vixen about the song,
songs about being an unapologetic whore,
and we started to compile a playlist that match that vibe.
star fox use to be a huge unapologetic whore…
because of this,
he had wolves literally begging to be with him.
when they got out of line,
even when he had to press them,
they always came crawling back.
when he moved to atl,
he talked to so many high profile wolves down there.
star fox made me better.
something i noticed when he was alive:
The music we listened to matched the vibe we were looking for
it was all high vibrational.
one of two of his favorite songs:
he nick-named himself “stacks” because of that last song.
we loved songs about getting money and fuckin’ with rich wolves.
there was something about the music of the 2000s that felt good.
even the 90s music was a whole vibe.
it was all about having a good time,
sometimes temptin’ someone else’s wolf,
but it never dealt with dealing with the dusties who had nothing to offer.
these days…
Dusties rule supreme
they are all over hip hop.
none of them are sexy or even make you want to fuck for the night.
the vixens who sing are depressed and need a therapist.
beyonce went from singing “no, no, no” to building sandcastles with her philandering husband.
one issue is in the 2000s,
we didn’t see these celebs lives play out all over social media.
they had an allure of mystery.
these days we know the “boss ass” lyrics never match the actual person.
bad enough,
it makes the dusties think they got it like that.
side-bar: these vixens had the biggest “pick me” song after this with “single for the rest of my life“.
what???!?!?!?!?!?
i admitted to the pretty vixen last night that when star fox died,
a part of me died with him.
she admitted that when her best vixen pack moved outta ny,
she lost a part of herself with them.
wolves kept disappointing her so she focused on her career.
even though she made it very far,
she misses her old life.
It seems our lives turned out the way it did because of disappointment.
i was the biggest unapologetic whore out here,
but i started to get jaded with dusties that disappointed me as well.
i was getting high off of anyone “cute” who would pay me any kind of attention.
most of them had the traits that i found attractive,
but they were dusties with high-key narcissistic traits.
now that i started therapy and working on myself,
i see where i went wrong.
“I don’t deal with people; they deal with me.”
even tho star fox is gone,
i never healed fully from his death.
i will continue this journey on my own.
going forward,
i’m gonna make an effort to only associate with high vibrational things,
music,
and people.
i love a good emo song,
but i realize that can be really bad for you mentally and spiritually.
even tho i can’t go back the past,
i can renovate my life into an evolved unapologetic whore.
that’s the era.
low-key: this is basic law of attraction rules too.
what you want in your life you immerse yourself in it.
you live like you already have it.
so if your music is depressing,
what do you think you are attracting?
It’s so interesting what you’re saying about today’s music scene because I was thinking the same thing today. These newer acts are all so depressing and drugged out. I mean back in the day artists were coked out but they had decorum and you couldn’t really tell but not now. They don’t even hide it. The male artist lack class and all the female artist wanna die. It’s really unfortunate. What is also intersting is how we treat our black artist who choose not sing about depressive subjects. Like lizzo, all of last year lizzo told people in song to love themselves and people turned around and told her she makes music for white people, SMH!
Another thing that’s missing from today’s depressing music is HOPE. One of my favorite musicians is Mary J. Blige and the reason why is because as dark and down n out as Mary’s music gets, she never loses hope. Even on her darkest album there was a hopefulness present. On her my life record she sings about wanting to be happy and on the tittle track she sings about looking to God. I respect that. These new artists will spend the better part of a 16 track album damn near begging to die. I can’t listen to that shit, music is supposed inspire and uplift not discourage.
^I LOVE THIS!
Mary Is my all-time favorite too!
If we are honest with ourselves the attention feels good especially being invisible at work and for some growing up. As a whore I was unapologetic but was the must honest with myself and my partners. I had a standard that had to be met, if you did not meet it come back when you did but I need to now focus on the next in line and you knew it. Because they are so many crazies, STDS and social media at an all time high out there, I am now forming relationships and getting to know that person. Trust is a must now.
^110%
My life in Atlanta!! I had so much fun back then, pulling in men all day, everyday!!! And the music always had a beat, house, drums, bass. It was the soundtrack to my life, I didn’t care if a man was married or not,I loved the attention I was receiving, I miss those days, I always say I’d never move back, so much has changed.
^damn we are one in the same with loving the attention lol
Speak more about the choice of music and how it can impact your mental and energetic wellbeing
^the pretty vixen told me she only listens to high vibrational music.
she doesn’t listen to sad music and a lot of what the r&b vixens sing about.
ari,
sza,
and summer are all pretty depressing.
pop music,
90s,
and 2000s music vibrates on a different level.
when you listen to it,
you feel good af.
you want to meet high quality males,
run in the right circles,
have good sex,
and live your best life.
music is energy.
if you listen to emo break up music or things that don’t inspire you,
you will feel low and think about things that don’t serve you.
you will start to feel it.
when it comes to the law of attraction,
what you think and feel is what you bring about.
it’s a no brainer to make playlists filled with high vibrational music that makes you feel like you are richest or sexiest mofo alive.
whores live life unapologetically.
they don’t think about doing shit; they just do it.
when i was living that way,
there was times in life when i was having fun and didn’t care if i met a wolf or not.
there was a time i was meeting good lookin wolves online and they were blowing up my phone on a daily.
my issue is i always wanted attention in public from wolves i was attracted to and that led me down a path of depression and second thoughts about myself.
there was a time last year i wasn’t looking for a wolf and i was vibrating at an all time high.
it was before my last job after i finally healed from that work wolf drama.
perfect example.
i was always listening to sad emo songs when he was in my life.
my 2017 year in review playlist was all sad songs.
my 2018 playlist was all high vibrational songs.
that’s where i want to be because i was having so much fun and doing things.
the lockdown served me good because i literally started to script and shape my life in how i wanted it to be.