want

i just want him to want me back (am i asking for the stars? i might just be)

i never get the wolf i want.
ever.
like,
ever,
ever.
i always have the pleasure of attracting the ones i want,
but we always have this intense moment until something splits us up.
no cap,
but they always end up having:

BIG.
BETA.
ENERGY.

all bark; no bite especially where i want to be bit.
it never fails…

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Christmas, The Most Wonderful Flexing Time Of The Year!

ya know foxhole,
it’s funny.
someone asked me what i wanted for christmas today.
just a random question from a friend.
i completely forgot that is coming up.
i didn’t put up a tree,
as i usually never do,
but this year doesn’t feel all that merry.
a couple years ago,
my apartment would be filled with christmas music.
you could feel the christmas spirit down the hall.
now…
eh.
so when i was asked the question,
i didn’t hesitate on what i what i really wanted…
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Words We Didn’t Get To Say

this maybe for the foxes.
you know i write for us.
maybe for the wolves and hybrids.
i know that it is for anyone in the life.
so let me ask you something:

you ever been out in public,
saw a dude,
and you both were on “the same page”?
because the situation was hot,
ya’ll couldn’t connect in the way you wanted?
the words you both wanted to say couldn’t be said?

oh it has happened to you too?
hmm.
well that happen to me just now,
actually i think it happens to me all the time…
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I Don’t Trust People… Until Its Time To Fuck Them.

do you believe in that statement?
does the word “trust” mean something to you?
or, do you just throw it around like the “l” word?
in life,
it’s pretty hard to love everyone,
let alone trust them.
as much as we can try,
someone always seem to fuck it up for the rest.
i had to wonder that if we all go around giving our “trust” a little to freely?
every smiling face and great conversation shouldn’t lead to showing our privates.
(see what i did there?)
at what point do you stop trusting and start guarding?
i had to wonder…

who do you trust and are you for sure?

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Oops… I Did It Again, and Again, and Again, and Again, and Again, and Again…

“i played with my heart.
got lost in my games.
ooh baby baby…”

i seriously had to ask myself,
“so add another one to the list?”
all of the mistakes i have made in the past doing “this”,
i go and bump my head and did it again last week.
i see now how i fall in the trap.
he was fine.
no, he was fuckin’ gorgeous.
alas, he ends up being a question mark.
i found my answer…