when i was a kid,
my mother bought me a doll.
i think my mother would have been okay with me being gay tbh.
it wasn’t barbie or a baby doll,
but it was def a doll the size of a ninja turtle.
i loved this doll and played with it along with my action figures.

the way i played with toys was usually superhero shit.
the female characters were either fighting or were “damsels to rescue”.
i would create worlds with my imagination,
often times taking boxes and making tanks or battleships.

well,
one day my doll up and disappeared.
anytime my grandmother wasn’t home,
i tore her house down looking for my doll.
at a young age,
i could sense fuck shit so i KNEW she had something to do with it.

when my mother died,
she admitted she tossed it in the trash.

when i tell people this story,
they were always empathetic.
i was also told from many people that incident created trauma too.
the things our parentals did to make sure “we weren’t gay“.
when i see parents like…

Foxhole…

i’m so fuckin tired of bad news every fuckin’ Goddamn day.

like…

one of my fav male soul singers is d’angelo.
sometimes,
i play his first album because of the feeling it gives me.
his remake of “cruisin” puts me in such a good mood.

his second album brings back so much nostalgia.
don’t even get me started…

on the video that was one of my gay awakenings as a kid.

from the lips,
to the chiseled jawline,
to the bawdy (a bawdy he was actually uncomfortable with)
he was a gorgeous and soulful black wolf.
imagine my shock,
after posting that last entry on x-twitter…

i want you to do something for me.
ready?
it might be a big ask for some but…

i love when chris evans has the “captain america biceps and pecs” out.
i hear he has been allegedly filming “avengers: doomsday“,
so this is all for an alleged captain america return.
between him and aaron taylor-johnson,
i lust love when the bawdy is bawdying under the clothes:

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( x mmm )
that being fonted,
chris comes off as a very unproblematic white wolf.
at the event for his new movie,
“sacrifice“,
i saw a post on reddit of a reporter asking him a question that was out of control…

i got a question for the Foxhole:

are we taking time out of our schedules to watch this documentary on jussie smollett?

don’t raise your paws fast enough now.
this is the trailer:

oh good Lord.
i’ll be 110% with you…