grief.
i’ve noticed a lot of males don’t sit in their grief.
we were taught to be men!
we don’t feel sad or emotions!
we bottle them up until we explode or make us sick!

we do everything possible to distract ourselves from “feeling”.
one way i see gay males dealing with our grief:

FUCKIN’.

straight males like to act like they are above us,
but its the same shit with them in a different costume.
outside of fuckin’,
it could be other ways like:

buying shit to show we are happy
becoming a gym junkie
being mixxy out in the forests
the “drinkin’ and the druggin'”

…and other numbers of ways,
but i had to wonder…

i’m gonna drop some “shit you probably already know“:

1 – if you want to do freaky shit with a male you think is fluid,
involve your wife or one of your best “down for whatever” hoe in your team.

2 – if you want to do it with an attentionisto off IG,
involve your wife or one of your best “down for whatever” hoe in your team.

but for the following attentionisto:

3 – if he came out with sex content with his wife,
and the attentionistos we want to see,
he would do so much more than whatever it is he is doing now.

alas,
i think he is venturing too far into “messy gay” than anything else.

with all of the following,
i should have taken him up on his offer for a massage becauseeeeeeeee…

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“i would totally let him stick his finger in my…“

“JAMARI!”

“sorry.”

besides stefon diggs,
the baller wolves have been kinda boring.
its all just domestic violence and impregnating random hoes.
yawn!
same ol; same ol.

josh hart of the knicks may have changed all of that.

when i googled to learn more about him,
the first thing i saw was ( x something about christianity ) with him.
that always leads to some foolishness.
so last night,
the knicks won the NBA cup.
don’t even ask me what that means.
while on national TV,
josh decided to do something wild to his teammate,
jalen brunson‘s,
and his “short baller wolf king“ butt cheeks…

his tail use to be fat but now it’s in his stomach.

jest.
have you ever had someone make a joke about something,
you laugh because it was so outrageous,
but you found out it was true later on?
people can make jokes and be dead serious.
ray j made a joke recently and it left me wondering:

is he being dead serious?

we have seen ray j naked; we done seen his dack and cheeks.
like kim kardashian,
we have seen all of their cards so at this point:

nothing else is left to embarrass them.
you can’t embarrass anyone who doesn’t have pride.

that is the hidden power of being an attentionisto.
so when ray j claims diddy allegedly “left his ass leaking”…

musical chairs is a simple game.
you line up a few chairs,
always one less than the number of players.
music plays,
everyone moves,
pretending there’s still room,
but the point of the game isn’t to win.
it’s to make sure someone loses.
when the music stops,
someone is always left standing.

from the time all of you joined me in The Foxhole,
it was probably from some sticky situation i found myself in.

a work wolf,
a job loss,
a murder of my best friend,
a letting go of people who couldn’t come with me.

…that or you googled something and landed here.
either way,
i am very transparent about my sticky situations.

the latest sticky situation is losing my home.

this didn’t start this year; it actually started last year…

in regards to the latest on brandon dillard,
the one who wasn’t licensed to put veneers in people’s mouths,
( x go to the Foxhole archives )
i found myself asking:

how much is too much?

they threw the entire dentist office at his ass cause via “complex“…