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watching last night’s episode of “insecure: lowkey trying” was triggering for me.
i didn’t to watch it last night because i was up til 7am,
sunday morning,
playing video games with my gaming friends.
so i was tired af and went to bed early last night.
i know this morning i was gonna watch it as soon as i got up.

“Wow.”

i ended up crying because i been in issa’s position before and it really fuckin’ sucked…
(light spoilers ahead)

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sometimes two people are not ready for each other.
it could be romantically or even platonic,
but i believe a good separation is often required for a future connection.
as humans,
we don’t appreciate things until they leave and want nothing to do with us.
don’t get me wrong,
some people are just not good for you.
i’m not talking about those jackals and hyenas.

Issa and Lawrence from “Insecure” are a pretty good representation of this.

last nights episode of insecure,
“lowkey happy”,
had me all in my feels at their reconnection…
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besides star fox,
i had another friend that i thought would have been in my life for a long time.
we ended up breaking up after not being compatible as the years went on.
mutual friends noticed they spoke down to me when we were together.
i noticed it as well,
but i wanted to keep trying to make the friendship work.
i’m sure i wasn’t perfect on my end,
but what friendship truly is?
many years after our end,
we ended up speaking on the phone,
but the spark was gone since we both grew in separate directions.

Friendship break ups are just as tough as breaking up with your man/woman

that seems to be this season’s theme on “insecure” between molly and issa.
last night’s episode,
“lowkey trippin“,
had a scene that posed an amazing question from twitter.
i wanted to ask the foxhole about the scenario (light spoilers)…
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as i watch “insecure” this season,
i totally get where issa and molly are coming from.
there was a point in star fox and i friendship where i said:

“I’m not fuckin’ with Star Fox anymore…”

i remember when we had our first official fight.
it was a big one after he left to go down to atlanta for school.

low-key: sometimes i wish he would have picked the high paying job,
but i knew he was restless and wanted to pursue his dreams.

anyway,
it was a few months into when he arrived down south…

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i’m “issa/season 3 of insecure” at this moment of my life.
at first i didn’t get where that season was going,
but these days,
i relate with it more than ever.
that last episode of the season,
she UN-packed and set up shit to start over.
oh hi,
me too!
we been waiting for this new season of “insecure“.
we been waiting for that like we waiting for rihanna to drop this damn album.
like crackheads.
we like crackheads ya’ll..
anyway,
the teaser dropped and well…

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i use to think ghosting was meeting someone,
feeling their vibe,
enjoying their conversation,
maybe even the sexual part of it,
and then they suddenly vanishing on you.
calls and texts go unanswered.
no explanation whatsoever.
they just drop you like it never mattered.
to me,
that’s one of the most hurtful and cowardly things someone can do.
it wasn’t until i realized that i was a ghosting slut as well.
oof…

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