FOXMAIL

Hey Jamari, I’ve been following your blog for a few months now and it’s funny how you’re one of the few people I can talk to about this and we haven’t even met. Your aura is so awesome it can reach people through a computer screen. I’ve never had to deal with this kind of situation so I’m asking for help.

I think I’ve met my soulmate. Almost a year ago I became friends with this guy at a get together. I was advised by some of my other friends to avoid him because he seemed strange but he was pretty cool so I kept talking to him. Since then we’ve practically hit it off. Everything he likes, I like. Every idea I’ve had since I was a child he’s had. Talking to him was like looking into an opaque mirror. Since that day, he’s become my best friend. I’ve been to his house where we’ve sat up and talked about everything until dawn. I’ve never met anyone I’ve had this deep of a connection with. There’s even times we can tell what the other’s thinking. It’s even gotten to the point that we finish each other’s sentences. He’s the only person I feel like I can tell anything to or go to for anything but… I think we both have feelings for each other and we’re to afraid to take that step. He got drunk one night at a party and told everyone we should be together. Everyone had an omg look on their faces and when he realized what he said he tried to play it off. I was drunk too and I didn’t want to make a scene so I just laughed it off. A few days later two of our friends suggested we be together, back to back. Even they can see it, but it got awkwardly shrugged off. Since then I feel like he’s been in his feelings and idk if he even still feels the same. I’ve never dated a guy. It’s not often I can imagine spending my life with someone, let alone another guy but I’d be willing to try with him. It’s like we were made for each other. We’re both aces which would make things a lot easier for us. My feelings for him have grown so intense that it’s hard for me to control it now. There’s so many examples of him passively flirting with me that I’ve lost count but nothing was ever initiated. If I let him go it’s gonna haunt me for eternity but I’m afraid to tell him how I feel in case I’m blind and it’s one sided, but I feel like I’m gonna lose him if I don’t. I honestly don’t know.

What do you feel would be best?

MY ANSWER…

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i like talking to folks.
i’ll talk to anyone that lets me.
i don’t care what the situation is,
jamari can get down with a good convo.
tonight,
i had an interesting conversation with the apple associate earlier…
Continue reading “An Apple Associate (To)Day” →

i can literally hear my mother in my ear.
so i hate feeling stupid.
i mean,
we all don’t like feeling stupid.
mine comes from years of mental abuse.
so i OD in working hard so i can master something.
in some cases,
it worked wonders.
others,
like my new gig,
it is causing me to fuck up…
Continue reading “How To Feel Small Around Big Balls” →

today was a long day.
i’m so tired and low on energy.
one co worker decided to call out.
another left early in the afternoon.
it was just me,
one other coworker,
and a deadline.
when i say i was legit tite?
bad enough,
i didn’t see the new mailroom wolf at all today.
grr.
besides all that,
i had a bigger hunt going on.

GET IN TOUCH WITH THAT CEO

as a fox…
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foxhole.
i’m in so much pain.
i feel like ima cry…
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oprah is,
like,
my spiritual auntie.
i would love to meet her one day.
i go to her when i need some kind of spiritual enlightenment.
well i saw this video on “forgiveness”,
but i didn’t understand it.
i was hoping the foxhole could help me…
Continue reading “The Foxhole’s Help on “Forgiveness”” →