this is probably going to be a controversial statement,
but i’m gonna font it anyway.
i think that some folks out here need to…

Stop attaching their emotions to others

…especially the gay community.
hell,
all communities?
all that energy only creates more energy for the other person.
so you’re actually doing a disservice.
i’ve been noticing this with the whole kevin hart situation…

Continue reading “stop getting emotional over these assholes” →

my main goal is to find the happiness i had a few week’s ago.
i was in such a good place.
i was in this state of bliss that i couldn’t explain.
when i woke up in the morning,
i had tons of energy.
it was like…
i was having great sex with someone i’m sexually attracted to.
i was horny about everything.
i was finally in a good place.
now…
Continue reading “I’m Not A Bad Person” →

you gotta watch some of the things you let in your life.
you also gotta watch closely for the energy it gives you.
it could be:

movies
music
relationships (platonic or not)

if it’s too dark,
it could take over your spirit and have you all fucked up.
so i watched “the walking dead” premiere last sunday.
it is one of my favorite shows,
but that shit had me all fucked up the last few days…
Continue reading ““The Walking Dead” Had Me So Depressed This Week” →

i have been so tired as of late.
like jamari fox is running on empty.
even writing this,
i feel like i could do with a 6 hour nap.
i still look good tho.
no bags or fine lines.
i just take pride in making sure i rest.
i actually just woke up from one before i grabbed my laptop.
last week was crazy busy because a lot has happened.
where do i even begin?…
Continue reading “I Would Probably Just Lay There” →

i’m realizing something…
Continue reading “Stuff All Your Energy In Me (Real Deep)” →

there are things that happen in life,
where one must choose to think positive and think fast.
like, when you get a flat tire and you are in the middle of murder’s alley,
or when you are at an event and someone shows up wearing the same thing as you.
moments like that when you’re forced to think positive,
because you can cause the energy to shift around you and WHAM!
the shit storm will commenced all over your head.
so when i got a picture message from a vixen checking my mail,
with all the letters from unemployment today,
i immediately went into the “what if…” and “why?” part of my brain.
when they send random letters,
they want you to come into the office for that “let us know what you’ve been doing” shit.
tedious shit,
but if you don’t come in,
they cut your unemployment benefits off.
well i’m 1,146.8 miles away and i cannot go in.
i been trying to think positive all day.
maybe it’s just them trying to catch up?
maybe its worse than that?
who knows.
all i know is i’ll have to call them and tell them the truth of why I’m here.
not much i can do,
but why do i feel so scared to step out on faith?
maybe because when i did,
during these potential shit storms,
god didn’t come through.
could be a reason.
why does it seem easier for other people?
ugh.
let me go look at wolves or something.