I’ve had beef with God for a minute.

okay,
maybe more than a minute.
like,
a solid two-year feud.
blame it on what the church villagers were telling me:

“God is testing you.”
“God gives you what you can handle.”
“God’s just seeing if you’re worthy of a breakthrough.”

sure,
it sounds poetic,
but it felt like spiritual gaslighting.

Why would a loving God dish out trauma like it’s a rite of passage?
Why the hoops?
Why the pain?

if i’ve already proven myself,
why keep testing me?
it felt like cosmic abuse with only my name on it.
i was ready to give up on God because i’ve seen tired.
i’ve been stuck in this loop,
playing by the rules,
yet running in circles.
this past sunday,
sarah jakes-roberts dropped a gem in her sermon that hit me like a plot twist…

i love when someone shakes shit up.
it hits the bottom of my spirit where antics are created.
there are those who don’t want to cause waves; others bring tidal waves.
lil nas x strikes me as that type.
from the time he was a nicki minaj stan until now,
he has generated all kinds of attention.
good or bad,
he knows what he is doing.
he came out with a video for his song “montero (call me by your name)” and…

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the devil wants to really bring me down.
i have a moment where things are calm,
but then all hell breaks loose.
so i wanted to get a physical to make sure i was good.
the last job i was at told me i was covered until the end of the month.
okay.
well i get a letter just now from the lab work…
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you know these sayings:

when it rains, it pours.
shit has shit the fan.

well i’ll add one to the list:

when shit gets backed up, it overflows.

uh uh.
the devil is so busy.
lets go down a timeline of yesterday,
shall we?…
Continue reading “The Devil Drinks My Toilet Water” →

after yesterday’s peanut allergy issue,
i saw this quote on pinterest today and it spoke volumes.
this quote serves as a warning.
not every baller wolf is raised right,
every pretty package doesn’t always have something good inside,
and even regular joes are prone to “dumbassness”.
be careful out there.
all that glitters ain’t gold and even the dollar store has nice shit that shows its quality eventually.
hell the devil could be you.
maybe even me.
yeah.
uh huh.
i went there.
we just haven’t had the opportunity or resources to show our true colors yet.
maybe?

lowkey: check out ( x my foxi life class fav quotes) on pinterest.
shameless plug ‘n’ shit.

never trust a big butt and a smile?

tahiry has some ‘splaining to do.
someone decided to send in a letter allegedly outing her ring finger,
her health status,
and who she let beat that big ol booty within the business….

Continue reading “Tahiry Is Allegedly Married and Giving Out Herpes In These Streets????” →