you know what’s crazy?
i’ve been seeing the telsa model s everywhere since i wrote about it.
remember how fascinated i was ( x with the auto pilot feature )?
well someone has allegedly died because of it.
a f-bi sent me the article from the huffington post and well…
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don’t judge me for this entry.
i really needed to vent.
my guess is they want to be released from all the pain they feel.
they don’t want to wait for that “happy ending” that may not happen.
it can be selfish.
i mean you are leaving behind people that give a fuck about you.
in the mind of someone who wants to end it all,
none of that really matters.
i guess thats the selfish part.
its like…
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i have been in my room,
playing this batman game,
and relatively in a good mood.
even tho i have no bbqs to go to,
i’m not too stressed about it.
mi came to me earlier and asked if she could use my computer.
she wanted to check her social media accounts.
well what followed…
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the death in the family.
the tears.
the emotions.
the words.

“OH MY GOOOOD AUNT GERTRUDE!!!
I LOVED YOU!!!
I LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!!!
YOU WERE THE SUN!!
THE MOON!!
AND THE STARS!!!
WHY AUNT GERTRUDE WHYYYY THEY TAKE YOU SO SOON!!!”

…and thats all good until aunt gertrude’s assets come into the conversation.
just no will of who gets those assets.
suddenly it goes from the sadness of losing someone to:

“BITCH SHE LOVED ME!!
I WAS THERE FOR HER IN HER LAST DAYS!!!
YOU STUPID UGLY BITCH!!!
YALL AINT DO SHIT FOR HA’H!!!
YOU WAS HER OWN CHILD AND YOU WASN’T EVEN THERE!!
FUCK YOU CAUSE I’M HERE TO COLLECT THAT CHE…
I MEAN…
TAKE CARE AND CHERISH WHAT SHE LEFT SINCE I WAS HER FAVORITE.
YEAH.
YEAH THATS IT…”

…yeah.
i know that all too well.
the death in the family can bring out the worse in everyone,
but i had to wonder…

Why don’t we think about setting up a will?

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who wants to watch another “us” get killed!?
well don’t raise your hands that fast!
everyone meet the late eric garner from new yawk.
he was killed by cops as they tried to restrain him in a choke hold last summer.
lets look at the video!
(warning: graphic material)…
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i was talking about my parents to one of the vixens in another department today.
she lost her mother two years ago and we were agreeing it doesn’t get easy.
i mentioned that i missed my parents so much,
i see little signs that they are around.
well why come when i was coming home tonight,
as i was waiting for the train,
this older lady was coming towards me to go further down the platform.
she was the SPITTING image of my moms.
height
complexion
hair cut
i guess she wanted to let me know she was still here.
it made me smile.
now if only they both can send me the winning lottery numbers,
or the wolf of my dreams…
sheesh!