i guess,
when i think about it,
i have learned a lot since i left new yawk.
it made me wonder:

was moving here actually a test?

earlier last week at work,
i could sense my boss wasn’t in the greatest of moods.
that might be a cancer thing where we sense emotions well,
but i believe my senses have been heightened with all i been dealing with.
he snapped at me over something trivial,
but since he owns the business,
that trivial fuck up means a lot to him.
instead of snapping back,
or explaining myself like the young fox used to do when he got in trouble:

apologized for the trivial fuck up
immediately shut the fuck up and let him talk
let him have his time to stabilize their emotions
went back to scrolling the nets when he went back to his office

on friday,
he came up to me and did something i didn’t see coming…

my writing tends to come from a place of pain.
it’s relatable because many of us struggle with the same things.
being a black gay male isn’t easy in this hateful society.
my creative expression comes from:

hurt
sadness
depression
anxiety

for the last couple of weeks…

Continue reading “i apologize.” →

…i truly am.
i was thinking about you today.
i think about you a lot actually.
thinking about how much i really liked you,
but i fucked it all up.
i’m so damn awkward when i’m around someone i’m really feelin’.
there was a time you were trying to get at me,
but i acted standoffish.
i mean you fumbled the bag too,
but i’ll get into that after i font my peace.
now it wasn’t that i was standoffish…

Continue reading “i want to apologize to you” →

kevin hart always a trick or two up his sleeve.
he’s a slippery fucker.
he won’t be outta here that easy.
so as you know,
or didn’t,
but the oscar committee canned him over of his past tweets.
( x see those past entries here )
ellen degenres isn’t letting him go anywhere tho.
they say she’s the gatekeeper to the gay community.
once you go on her show,
you’re washed and reborn in the blood of gay Jesus.
she has put on her cape and is standing tall for kevin.
this is what happened when he went on her show today…

Continue reading “kevin hart uses his gay card to get back on the oscars” →

when you have social media influence,
folks who don’t know you will go hard for you

that means those who follow your journey will be protective of you.
you can’t be posting anything and everything.
todrick hall has learned that.
when he posted that rant about his ex danny,
his legion of stans went ape shit about.
it got so bad that they sent danny death threats.
todrick had to post these apology videos with the quickness…
Continue reading “todrick hall learns his stans might be as crazy as he is” →

in my heart,
i feel like keith powers is a genuine wolf.
he is very harmless compared to others.
you know “the others”.
well remember that scandal he had with the comments he made about the male bisexuals?
( x read it here )
well he realized the error in his ways this morning.
this is what he fonted on twitter…
Continue reading “Keith Powers Serves The Bisexuals A Cup of “Sorry”” →